It's time to drop the fake smile, and this front I've been putting up. I can't handle things when thrown at me. I can't take much more. I've pushed myself past breaking point, and I fully take all blame. I'm lost and unsure. I need help. I can't take care of myself. I wish I was strong enough to admit my true feelings. I want to know everything, no matter the cost. I push people to there limits. I'll make your skin crawl. I'll be an annoyance to you. I've lost just about every person I have ever cared about, except one. My only best friend is reacurringly being sent to the hospital, and I'm band from seeing her. I need constant reassurance that everything will be okay. I don't need your advice and won't take it. I want to change, I want to get back to normal. I don't know what's wrong with me lately, but I'm pissing off every person that means anything to me. I'm getting better. I'm stopping the things shouldn't be doing, and doing the ones I should. I just need help along the way, that's all I ask.
I need to know what my life is going to be like. But most importantly, I need to know if this battle is worth fighting.
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