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The Pain

It stricks
It hurts
It burns
I bleed
I get sick
I feel weak
I feel lost
I feel alone

My Swelling incresse more and more
my mind jumps to anything but the truth
but i know it is so,
i cry when no ones around
i scream when im alone
i lay on the ground staring up at the sky
wondering how long
i lay in my room looking at the celing
wonding why..

I lose myself in thoughts

the pain incresses everyday
the lostness stays
my heart beat incresses
then slows down
the tears fall
i know
i know

i dont want it to be.
i belive it is
i cant run from it
it comsumes
my dreams was becoming a reality now its getting
taken away from me.

i cry
i scream
when noones around
the pain is to much to bare now
the plus in my neck pounds
my heart slows down
the pain incresses
its not just
its alway more

when its more
its even more
theres a never ending sorrow

i fear
i cry
i scream
yet noone can hear me
for i do it when im alone

everyday may be a new day
but whens my last day?

we all know
we all belive it is
theres nothing i or he or she can do

what if
why me
how come
who knows..

im scared and yet you have no idea to what im saying
to me this is something to cry about something to fear
it never leaves
it stays
i hope its not so
but i know it is
theres no runing from it
it'll get me soon
better start now
before its to late.

i cry
i scream
i fear
when no ones around
so no one can hear me.