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I realized that sometimes I feel to bitchy about things. Things that really don't make a difference in my life. I think my greatest problem is that I love people too much and they hurt me so badly. Then afterwards my wrath towards the human race becomes so great that I have often thought that someone should wipe the Earth clean of our horrid race. I often think about it and concludfe that all the bad things that happen are because of us. But then there are always people that love me so much and I ignore in my blind rage. That hurts me the most. But I have made some great friends that I know will stick with me no matter what. And oddly enough, they are the most insane people I have met. Still, I can't help but love them so. I know it is not wise to release so much personla information, but this is dedicated especially to Chris, George and Daniel. I know that these are perhaps the most troubled people in the world, but still they bring the comfort I need. The most perplexing of friends has got to be Daniel though. I can fathom how someone so violent and mean can become the most loyal friends you can have. I know he can be a jackass and pretty much everything turns him on. Sure he can sometimes make you feel like s**t, but I know that Daniel would waste his life on me without thinking about it. He always listens, though he may not always choose the proper words. George is funny. He had problems but he is a pretty good friend. I tell him a lot of things that sometimes shock me because I'm not that open to people. George can be an a** sometimes, but I can relate to him in so many ways. I can talk to him about absolutely anything and he wont criticize me. Chris is just straight out awesomeness from a box. He is whack and stuff, but I can talk to him like I was talking to my mind. I can say the craziest things that no one else understands, and he captures them as if he was me. I can talk about deep subjects with him and ponder about so many things. So if any of you are reading this, you should feel a very special person. If it weren't for you guys, I most likely would have taken my life a long time ago.
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