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Okay I hate this my mom dies and my dad blames me and beats me and marries this b***h who I get into a fist fight with every night because shes a drug addict. My friend just died because of me. My sis is in the hospital because the blood from her nose is running into her throat and shes coughing up blood. I'm so ******** stressed out because school. I have drama club, tech club, Chorus, select chorus, Singing lessons, School play, School council, Environmental club, dance, homework, friends, family, and I never have time for my self! I'm tiered because I can never go to sleep because I have insomnia. I have people saying its going to get better but it's not and it hasn't been getting better at all! I have to pretend to be happy so much that I almost believe it when I say every thing is okay even though I know its not and every one else knows it too from the bruises on my arms and the cuts on my wrists.... I ******** every thing up and I just want to die but I can't because I made promises to myself and others I would try and keep strong and not take my life because of this all....