Everything is horrible...
Most of my friends are alienating me, my best friend/manager/lead guitarist Dante Rosth died yesterday, and I dumped my boyfriend Gibson because I'm not over Adrian, my old boyfriend who killed himself over me. I finally realized that the person I've loved all along is my teacher's big brother, Ethan, and he's the one I want to be with. I really don't care that Ethan has bbroken my heart more times than I can count, and if I'm not bad enough, the man who just caused my best friend's death, a 17 year old goth called Leo, is hitting on me...
At least Leo's 3 year old daughter is nice to me, but that won't matter now that Leo is leaving town with her.
I finally mustered the courage to explain to Ethan how I feel, but I don't think he's figured out that what I meant by all of what I said is that I love him. Sadly, that may never dawn upon him...
I never did tell Gibson what I've needed to... I loved Gibson, but not as my boyfriend. I love Gibson as a friend... I had a really hard time seeing him as more than a friend...
I hate my life...
And today is my brother's 18th birthday...
I hate myself.
Anna Ashe Community Member 
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