I'm not sure why I'm even sitting down on gaia long enough to type this. But I think its better to type my feelings then to keep them bottled up. Of course I'm not going to show my true feelings in real life, around my family. I dont need them judging me anymore then they already do. I know people most likely dont read any of this, but its just the fact I can get my feelings out that make me feel better.
The last few months have been pretty good actully. Other then a few mental issues my brain keeps bugging me about. I'm rembering less and less about what passes on threw the days. To be quite honest I dont even remeber how I got infront of the computer. My mom just thinks everything I do is for attetion. Or the fact I want a sex change is because I think I'm ugly. God people I know face to face just dont ******** get it. I swear there laughing at me behind my back, and I'm getting ******** sick and tired of it!
I dont laugh at people behind their backs! Or to them at all! And yet I'm stuck being the laughing stoke of my family. The freak who has no friends [give or take two people i see every 6 months]
just
gah
you know me writting this
eh
was pretty boring
theres no emotions in what im saying right now. i feel completely cold. blank. heartless if you may.
soo
im going to sign off
get some sleep
and continue my path down the road of firey hell, tomorrow.
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