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dear diary,

everyone is sad today right now. not online on this game,but in real too. why is everyone so sad? yes they put on a happy extierior but inside, everyon is sad. im just want to know whats gonig on wirh today and why is everyone so sad? when i think about everything that has happend in everyones lives, i cant imagaine why they are sad. maybe this is the day where everyones painful pasts coming back in their head or in their face. i dont want anyone ever to be sad. when i grew up my mom told me that we were going through a tough time which i cant say. anyways i was always happy because when i was little my mom never showed any of her depression on her face and was always happy. which made me happy. you wonder why im so happy when its a sad moment? well i'll tell you this. i never saw pain when i was a little girl. i never saw the dark side of anything. why didnt my mom tell me all the things she told me? well heres what my mom said. "somtimes people need a positive person in their life to make everyone smile in seriouse times. it lets them know that they can be happy and have the courage to get through things when things are tough." so when you see me smile while holding a candle at some seriouse cerimony, you'll know why im smiling. maybe if you see through my eyes, see through my heart, see through my ways, speack through my mouth. you would smile too.