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I'm starting to have this uncontrollable rage. I think it's from a lot of things. My friends lie-ing to me, ignoring me, blowing me off, not talking to me, my parents making everything my fault, the fact that my friends are slowly abandoning me {not all of them are doing this now just most of them}, and the fact that I'm last on everyone's list of priority. And can't forget those depression times
I just want to go up to people and scream in their faces and shake them. I have very violent dreams where I bludgeon people to death. I want to slam my fist on the tables/desk and throw things across the room.
It's all making my heart hurt. I feel weak all the time and I want to cry. I'm always sleepy and my head feels funny. I have no energy. It's all really weird.
I have no way to get this out or to vent. Whenever I really want to vent or something no one is there or I can't do it. I've tired everything and nothing seems to work