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Driving this wreck of a life, through all the yellows and reds.



Erg. Strangely depressed now, after writing a massive thread opener. The admins are in crunch mode as we all know. I just happen to know a bit more because of purpleness, but I'm still in the same boat. Waiting for what's coming next. Very tired on this cold day in october. The leaves changed and fell over the course of a single week, and winter is all ready to crap all over my homestate once more. Not like I'm going to miss being swelteringly hot.. But.. I'm sure as ******** not ready for snow. At least I get to wear my winter coat. I love that thing. So sue me, I like my wool trench.

I think I got my best compliment ever today. I don't know how to feel about that, other than blushing like mad. I don't take compliments real well. Comes from feeling like a worthless sack o s**t for most of my life. Now, I just don't care if I am or not. I don't feel like one on most days, and that's enough to get me by. Well, now that I've quit drugs, and don't drink as often.

Sometimes, you've got to take stock of your life and wonder.. just why the ******** you're so screwy.

"all of you are taking stock of your lives, I say... leave your livestock alone."

I said a line the other day, and I really like it. So, for your enjoyment, the same crap I've written before!

"You fill your life with stories. The only way you can tell if you're doing it right is if you have more good stories than bad."

I don't know, I just like that.

I've probably posted these before, but.. Read em' again.

Custom - "Mess"

You dont really want to get
involved in my life
its kinda scary like a slurpee brain freeze,
you dont really want to taste
more than the first kiss,
because if you do
there are some things you
should know about me

Im a messed up kid
with a messed up head,
driving this wreck of a life
through all the yellows and reds
cause my messed up parents
messed up and had me
if you want something totaled
just give me the keys

so you think thats
kind of charming
everyone you knows
a little confused
but i bet theyre not all
super-jinxed
black cloud bad luck s**t magnet
psyco mood swing lunitics
like me

Im a messed up kid
with a messed up head
driving this wreck of a life
through all the yellows and reds
cause my messed up parents
messed up and had me
if you want something totaled
just give me the keys
and all of my friends are all a mess
theyre all a mess just like me
if you put us all together
it gets really ugly
im a mess

im a messed up kid with a
mess of a life
I look for boots with my teeth
And my back with a knife
I cant explain all the ********
Ups and failures
Cant remember any names
Its not something quantifiable
And its not some kind of game
What does it mean when
Everythings ******** up
What does it mean when
Everything sucks
What does it mean when you don’t
Want to leave the house
You'd rather stay in bed drunk
Im a mess