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This journal will be to let people know what my days are like, what music plays in my head, who in the world I hate, and my opinions on random garbage that half of the people on Gaia could care less about. :D.
Two years and countin'...
Maybe it'll be three before ever update again. Ha.

Well, I said it would be a couple months, and that went by pretty fast, didn't it? A lot has changed in these past couple years, so I suppose we may as well get the obvious stuff out of the way. I'm almost 21 now, I'm now maintaining a little chin scruff to make my appearance a bit older (apparently, I have a 'baby face'), I'm exercising daily to keep up with the rigorous demands of my lifestyle and am yielding great fruits from it, I'm still a student of digital arts, and I'm still... for some unknown reason... on Gaia.

About Gaia. Let's touch on that for a moment, yes? A lot has changed for me, but a lot more has changed for this site, and certainly not necessarily in the good way. FIRST OFF, when I first joined Gaia (like four and a half years ago), they were talking about the MMO. It's been that long, and they only just now have a BETA for it, and a NAME. And then there's the whoring. My god, I have never seen any franchise or company outside of certain television channels stoop so low as to hand out their names to every other title that drops by. When the Bee Movie promotion came out, I felt a great shudder run through my spine, like a precursor to all of the present madness. And then there's all the extra (excess) games and functions the site has now. Gaia IM? Psh. Aquarium? What the hell. All of this would be fine if their plate wasn't already obviously full enough; the so-called admins and moderators of the site can't even keep up with all of the maintainence and reports anymore. Towns, for instance, has flaws upon flaws upon flaws in it now... and nobody seems concerned? Uh, duh? Nevermind all of the extra hackings and such that has been going around of late. Sure, there have been fixes made to the security to keep everyone safe, but it's not like it can't be broken like everything else this site has dished out to ne'er-do-wells. That Charlie guy, though... that was a funny story. I hear (it's probably only a rumor, but still) was one of the first to start using scripting hacks in Towns to make clone avatars and change around username text colors and such, and I heard he got slapped with a lawsuit by the Gaia Corporation. If anyone can find me some truth to that, please let me know. I would probably post it on my wall, it would be so funny to me. The guy had it coming with all the crap he was doing, but man. To get sued by what used to be just a little site really puts the advancements that have taken place into perspective. Unfortunately, others did not follow by the example made of Charlie, and continue to wrack Towns into submission. What are the mods doing about that? Zip. The occasional sweep will take place that will wipe everything clean, but then make Towns impossible to access freely. I say just trash it at this point. It's worse than Personals; and if you ever were around Gaia when that got booted, think of Barton Town RP board, only with more slave and cybersex RP's.

And that's another thing about Gaia. Holy crap, the written word has been just about completely nullified here. Back in the day, there used to be the occasional terrible idea layered within the bazillion good ideas and decently written and thought-out RP's, but then suddenly it flipped around to where I have to browse through Barton Town's pages for like two or three hours before I can find anything POTENTIALLY interesting. There is a massive abundance, in particular of the following:
NARUTO. ******** YOU. D< It really isn't that good of a show, and certainly isn't a good comic. Go watch and read something intellectual, and you just might get a taste of culture by accident.
Crossovers. NONE of them make sense. The GM's of these just thought it would be fun to act on impulse and suddenly bring two series together that have no credible relation to one another at all.
Chatrooms. This one just boggles my mind. An RP about chatting based on certain anime (NARUUUTOOOOO) characters, playing on a forum-based board. Wow. And even then, there isn't any development or plot to it... it's just... people talking. What?
High School RP's. Usually and commonly involving particular anime characters either grown-up a bit or reverted to high-school status. Half of the Gaian population is in high school, and you want to fantasize about the thing you basically live, only without kamehameha's and kunai? Shoot yourself in the foot.
And then there's the little things; these aren't BAD so much as they just disinterest me and are in great abundance for some reason:
One-on-ones. Okay, you don't like big numbers. That's fine. But doesn't playing twenty or so characters by yourself seem like not only a meticulous task, but a retarded one? If you have a really good idea, and feel compelled to bring it to life, just write a goddamn book. Sheesh.
And lack of coherent writing. Holy crap, there are even guidelines on the front of the board that show you how to make a good RP and to RP legibly and sensibly. The LATTER of the Gaian population these days is content to dish out singular lines of hogwash in some kind of twisted eternal cycle of retardation. It's like watching monkeys hit each other with sticks... which is actually kinda funny, if I think about it more and more.

But that's no excuse. I have been here a while, and I have been witness to this atrocity. It makes me wonder if all of mankind is suffering the same way on a global scale. If that's the case, may as well launch all the nukes now and be done with it. This really isn't going anywhere fast.

And finally on that note, after all this time, I finally got hacked recently. Took you long enough, guys. I've only had decent items for like three years now. And the guy who messed with my account? Didn't even take anything valuable. Lost a couple items that I've had to repurchase, but NONE of them were donation items, letters, or anything spanning more than 10k in value. And for some reason, I got my guitar of angellus back. The most damage this mystery person did was set me back by 100k. Zippity doo da. I mean, I reported it the very morning that I was probably hacked, and got the account frozen for a while, which is what leads me to believe that's why I still have most of my stuff, but given the recent activities, I can only wonder if maybe this particular individual just did it to try to tick me off. Sorry, it didn't. I was mildly annoyed that I'd have to retain all of my items again over time, but it's just pixels in the end. People spend all their time on Gaia just to attain artificial wealth, and then get ticked when they get hacked? It's like a cold slap in the face, really, to make one realize 'holy crap, I've just wasted four years of my life doing this' instead of 'holy crap, I've finally gotten a halo and it only took four years'. I like Gaia as much as the next person, and am in love with the avatar system (those of you who know me know I change my avatar's appearance at least once a day every day), but I have a life. Trust me, people; there's more to the world than earning meager pixels.

All in all, not sure why I'm still on Gaia. I think I just really really want to finish my wishlist, and say that I was able to do it. I used to stay for the RP, but that's obviously gone out the window a long time ago. I think I must be a glutton for punishment to this to myself. Ah well.

Well, anyway. Last time we talked, I was unemployed. It took me a year, but I finally managed to get a new job as a busperson at Outback Steakhouse. No, of course it isn't glamorous. No, of course it doesn't pay well. No, I am not happy with it. I've made a promise to myself not to stay longer than a year, and I intend to hold myself to it. I'm vigilantly on the search for something new. Problem withstanding is that I don't have a car to call my own yet, so my span of areas to job-hunt in is limited to walking distance of a couple shopping centers. I've been saving my money altogether, and it really isn't that bad of a job. I mean, you get what you expect-- messy, greasy, and disgusted by the way people leave their tables when they finish stuffing their faces with what you saw in the kitchen dropped on the floor at one point. And my co-workers are generally nice. There's a couple, particularly new ones, that I don't get along with as well, unfortunately. But that's how life is, I suppose. One of the new new ones who has only been with us for about a week now is already on my nerves enough to make me want to punch him. Last time we worked together, I had to muster all of my strength not to assault him. Fortunately, I don't even think that would get me fired just because my brother is good friends with the manager (the main reason why I got the job at all in the first place).

The biggest problem I have with it is two things: Mexicans, and chicks. Now, before you get into a hissy fit, I'm not racist. It just would really help me out if either I knew spanish, or they knew english. Come on guys, it's America. If you can't speak just a little english, it's not going to be an easy ride for any of us. And then chicks. The girls at work are all nice to me, and we all more or less get along swimmingly. The problem? ALL of them are between the age ranges of either 15-17, or 30-40. 15 through 17 doesn't seem so bad, but the more I think about when my friend dated a chick in middle school while he was a high school senior makes me gag. There's this one chick there that I might make an exception for, though. I don't even know if she's single or not, actually. God I hope so... *_*

I was dating a girl for a time semi-recently. We met through respective friends of friends, and hit it off over a game of monopoly (lol). I took her out to dinner, popped the question, and we kissed in the cold, cold air. It was nice... for a time. Then we started to work together, and everything went downhill from there. We weren't that close at work or anything (she wouldn't even let me peck her cheek in passerby or anything). And then when I didn't call for a couple days, she'd go batshit on me, and basically exclaim that I didn't care. Mind you, I wasn't that interested in the relationship at that point, and just tried my best not to upset the poor girl. Then one day out of the blue, she goes to sign up for American Idol. I tell her good luck over the phone and to tell me how it goes. She never called back, and I never bothered to check up on her. According to my friends I met her though, she hasn't seen fit to talk to anybody within our circle, and has pretty much conformed to some other social group. Chicks, man... chicks.

You women are crazy. >:0

And then there's school. About six months ago now, and I was still dating that particular girl, she hooked me up with some places to look for school because I had to for some reason jump the shark for her to be successful as an artist... yeah. Anyway, I went through the motions just to please her, and suddenly get a phone call from this online school called The International Academy Of Design And Technology. Having never heard of it, I was dubious about it being legit. Even more so when they asked for a fifty dollar submission fee, and how I got into such an 'exclusive' school without putting forth any effort or presenting a portfolio for critique. Anyway, I stuck with it for a time, and it was all right in the beginning. The worst part about it was taking care of stacks and stacks of financial and consent forms. I had to retake one of my classes because they misplaced one of these papers, and it was just maddening. I did get some cool supplies, though; a stylish portfolio bag, very expensive professional markers and pencils, and a sketchpad (I usually just use printer paper, har). I've only just recently gotten back on my feet and started the second class, but by that point I'd decided that I wasn't made for a monotonous, faceless online class. I want to interact live and face-to-face with my peers and teachers. Nevermind the actual college experience of sex, drugs, and rock and roll. Even if it's not like it is in the movies (what is?), I'd still like to look back and say I did that as opposed to saying I sat in front of my computer to earn my degree.

I'm probably breaking my own arm by making such a move, but I've since then withdrawn from IADT, and don't intend to return, especially given that the entirity of the course would put me in debt for the rest of my life.

Anyway, there's my family next. Not much news from them outside the norm, actually. My mom is still living with my dad for financial reasons. Once she gets her tax returns, she intends to take the money to buy a small apartment for herself, and retain her sanity. I'd probably end up going with her, considering I'm pretty much the only one of her kids who gives a damn about what she puts up with on a daily basis just to keep us happy. I'm seriously surprised she hasn't bitten a bullet by her own hand yet. My older sister is still a pompous b***h that can't support herself and treats everyone around her as lesser beings. She has a new child for which she uses to mooch off of my parents for whatever they may need without giving so much as a thank you, and certainly no intention of returning these favors. She was also recently sent to the hospital after having a panic attack, only to find that her blood was laced with cocaine and marijuana... lol. My older brother finally moved away to say that he was going to college only to find that he was without a secure job, and is presently moving from pizza parlor to pizza parlor making minimum wage. Also mooching off my parents to get by. I can't really say I'm doing much better, all things considered. But I'd also like to consider that, if I were to take these favors from my parents, I'd give it back to them in due time twice over.

I just need a car at this point. I don't have much right now, but am still saving up every penny just to get there. I treat myself and my friends/family to a nice dinner every now and again, but have been doing much better than the rest of my siblings, who squander their checks right after attaining them. After I get a car, I get a decent job that doesn't involve handling food or cleaning tables, and then I get my own place, and then I go to college somewhere local, and then I get a decent career. I still don't know exactly what I want to be, but I've narrowed it down to something involving digital art. I've grown quite fond of not only graphic design (banner-making, ad-making, all that rot), but also digital painting. I'm not very good at either at the moment, but am learning fast enough, I'd like to think. It's easier than the traditional mediums, I guess, but it still isn't a cakewalk.

Anyway, it's going on to be about 1 in the morning here. I've been brainstorming and typing this entry for about two hours. I think you've learned enough.

I might add more in a bit, but am now going to bed. Good night, world.






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Make Up Sex
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commentCommented on: Sat Oct 18, 2008 @ 07:10am
On the whole Charlie rumor, it isn't true, mostly. Gaia slapped a lawsuit on a guy who was using the Gaia cash cell phone purchasing system to dupe free Gaia cash. As far as Towns scripting, I know a few of the first people who started doing it, and there were virtually no repercussions beside bannings when it got out of hand.


commentCommented on: Sun Oct 19, 2008 @ 01:38am
From what I've read, I do give you my best regards towards your determination to get in to a good college. It's good to find a devoted individual every once in a while, and I'm glad that I've gotten to be friends with you.

I hope that I can get in to a decent art college. I've been looking in to applying for my sister's college, Springhill. (But man, is it expensive! 32k just for one year.) Although, I'm looking to stick to a better, more art-entitled college like Memphis College of Art, or even this one art college in Atlanta. The only issue for me is getting around transportation-wise, and distance from my home. Seeing as I'm still only 16, I have yet to go and obtain my license, and I'm terrified of trying to find a decent job. o_o; Christ.

Anyway, I'm in agreement with you on the whole 'Why-am-I-still-playing-Gaia?' comment. Damnit, I seriously want to quit this site one day. Hopefully, maybe just take a long break. It's wrecking my social life. Blahgh.

Update more often, fool.



novelty boy
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commentCommented on: Mon Oct 20, 2008 @ 03:11pm
Holy Damn! Long post is certainly long. But it was informative.

Dude, I hate scripters, someone FROG'd my avi in towns and it pissed me off because towns crashed on me after and I had to restart to get back in.

Chicks are crazy...


commentCommented on: Mon Oct 27, 2008 @ 04:52am
I love your blogs. ;_;
I don't even know why.



a placebo
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I Evie I
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commentCommented on: Tue Oct 28, 2008 @ 05:36pm
Most jobs aren't all that great... but they're needed.

Your family sounds like mine... demented. o.o

Good luck on the art school. ^^ I think you draw great. :3

And good luck on the car thing as well. I want to get my truck running again... may just have to go out and get a new(er) one. ><

-Huggles- Thanks for the up[date.,.. at least you are doing well and still alive. <3 We should hang out more often. 3nodding


<3 Jenny


commentCommented on: Mon Dec 15, 2008 @ 10:33pm
That. . .was. . .beautiful *_*
Lol, well, I am proud of you dude. I read that whole thing and had to get a tissue box!
. . .Okay, I was only joking. But damn, that was long. I did read it and I felt for you. Update often!
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I don't even know if she's single or not, actually. God I hope so... *_*
Lol <3



rilakkuuma
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