HAHAHAHA! not!
I cant stand school, i hate it! with a burning passion as intense at a million suns!! I wish i could just get on with my life already, i was ready to be done with school when i got out of high school. I know that i needed to go to college to ''Better" myself.. but.. i dont know.. i just needed a break, but i never got one. I had planned to just take a semester off, get a job, find myself.. my purpose in life.. you know. But i still dont know what i want to do with my life. What am i MEANT to do? what would i LIKE to do. For now im stuck doing something that i really dont want to do and my grades are reflecting that, my mom is always on my back (She is the one that made me go to school in the first place) and i feel lost. It would be better if i actually knew want i wanted to do for a living, for the rest of my life, but i dont. And the path that i have picked isn't really one i want either, but i felt rushed and i have no idea what ELSE to do. @.@ Will it get better? will i ever know what i want to do with the rest of my life? will it be to late? all i can do for now is just hang in there.. i feel like im hanging by a thread thats just becoming weaker and weaker.. when will it break? if when will that thread turn into a rope and a harness? I feel that only i can make it better, but i dont know how..
 Tora Akki · Mon Oct 06, 2008 @ 08:15pm · 4 Comments |
