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curse this world, curse this life, curse living things but of all these things im the most cursed...................why! 15 years lost, why!? this damned message can't say what i feel, why i still have to be alive why!!?
to be funny for all the lost ones? To be a disgrace? to be nothing?
Someone answer me! I live all my life, and the promisse that all the things happen for something is just a lie? A fool tale? Or just not work for me!? Time has already won, now im a adolescent a damn son of a b**** adolescent, and for what? To live in front of books and search for useless things, the fact is that i never felt what u feel, i never kissed, i don't know what we feel with a human body on our arms! But ask me about a book! Now i have the answer, i know what we feel with a damn cold thing in our hands i know, and the wind that a book do when we sitch the pages! This i know this damned thing i know!............
Why God don't throw me away!!? i have nothing to offer him! Nothing! Ill be ever this sucker.....coold blooded monster who live only to wait death.