Ever since he has gone out with my friend,
i've felt different..
i relized new perposes..
i've gotten closer with God and almost lost friends,
and the haze in my mind has thined.
But i still feel lost and at a daze sometimes.
I've had a few boyz who have seemed to like me in that way..
the way i've desired all my life.
When i'm with any of them, my mind clears completly.
I feel whole.
but when i'm away, i think of all of them and him..
and it hurtz, because i feel for them all
but i never know what's right.
I hate hurting people, i hate fighting,
I luv feeling, and being close to some one with compassion.
but if i'm away from whomever, i feel lonley and empty..
I still have feelings for him, and they are strong.
If i was to be going out with someone,
I would leave them just to be with him, if he needed.
I would need someone who wouldn't mind me loving someone strongly
Ofcourse i would love them, but i would love someone else equally.
At least, that's what i believe i would do..
And he himself has told me that i'm like a sister to him,
So i might never have to worry about it..
If that was to happen, to where he never did need/want me,
Whomever i dated would have to deal with my unexpected depression..
I would get depressed and would need comfort from them,
Even if i was crying about another boy..
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i've felt different..
i relized new perposes..
i've gotten closer with God and almost lost friends,
and the haze in my mind has thined.
But i still feel lost and at a daze sometimes.
I've had a few boyz who have seemed to like me in that way..
the way i've desired all my life.
When i'm with any of them, my mind clears completly.
I feel whole.
but when i'm away, i think of all of them and him..
and it hurtz, because i feel for them all
but i never know what's right.
I hate hurting people, i hate fighting,
I luv feeling, and being close to some one with compassion.
but if i'm away from whomever, i feel lonley and empty..
I still have feelings for him, and they are strong.
If i was to be going out with someone,
I would leave them just to be with him, if he needed.
I would need someone who wouldn't mind me loving someone strongly
Ofcourse i would love them, but i would love someone else equally.
At least, that's what i believe i would do..
And he himself has told me that i'm like a sister to him,
So i might never have to worry about it..
If that was to happen, to where he never did need/want me,
Whomever i dated would have to deal with my unexpected depression..
I would get depressed and would need comfort from them,
Even if i was crying about another boy..
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