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The world doesn't appreciate what I am good at. They all hate me. Today I heard it again-art is useless. It's a subject all the stupid people do, that don't understand computer skills. History is useless too. Who would want to know about the past, when you have this day? What they are basically saying is I am useless and stupid. I believe in God too, so that makes me even stupider. The only things I am good at, and the only things I enjoy are just s**t that can't ever be of any use to anybody. I know, I'm either supposed to become an engineer or a scientist, or then I should just ******** off from this superficial world. I wish I didn't care. Or I wish I could tell them they are worse than me, and stand up for myself. I don't speak, the only thing I can do is draw (and not even too well), I believe in God, and the only school subject I like is history. I am completely and totally useless. Who would want me? No one.
My family is poor too. I am poor, I can't sleep, I have to move all the time and I cannot be bothered to do anything about my stupidity anymore, as it never leads to anything. I will always remain this stupid. I remember a friend of mine saying once in a maths lesson "This is the first time I feel this stupid", when she just directly didn't understand that question. I'm like sitting there... I never understand anything in maths. I'm not that kind of person, and I am stupid? Maybe I was just wrong. This world has a limited amount of seats for people like I am, and all of them have been taken. I guess I will seriously become a banker. Owwell, I can't. I can't count. Maybe I'll just join the army and get entertainment out of shooting stupid idiots that run into my way. And then I'll get shot one day myself, and when I die, I can say I did something useful to the world, if that is what our God (if he exists) likes us, stupid people, to do. In that case I'd rather go to hell, though.