That question now plages me if I stay or leave the g-angels for good. I have already taken a leave of them..now after today, especally since I get a ******** headache over it.
If you think I still have my head kissing a mods a** your dead wrong. I have been baddly hurt today and not alot people I notice really cared about that. My dreaming of being an angel is now depending. I worked my butt off today in the masquerade thread alone. I guess people liked how the music was :/ Donno not really a whole lot of comments on it. Especally from those I looked up to said nothing to me today and ignored me all the time in the thread they made. Yeah some friends I have..which really are no at all.
Thanks to all of you now I dont know where I belong..I know for sure Im not really welcome in the thread, much less any where with any of you.
A song thats just fits:
"Ordinary" ~ Train
Whose eyes am I behind I don't recognize anything that I see Whose skin is this design I don't want this to be the way that you see me
I don't understand anything anymore In this world that I'm tired of Is taking me right up these walls That I climb up To get to your story It's anything but ordinary
And when the world is on its knees with me its fine And when I come to the rescue I get nothing but left behind Everybody seems to be getting what they need where's mine 'Cause your what I need so very but im anything but ordinary
Can you save me from this world of mine Before I get myself arrested with this expectation You are the one look what you've done What have you done? This is not some kind of joke You're just a kid You weren?t ready for what you did
And when the world is on its knees with me its fine And when I come to the rescue I do it for you time after time Everybody seems to be getting what they need where's mine 'Cause you what I need so very but im anything but ordinary
I think im trying to save the world from you You've been saving me too We could just stay in and save each other
Im anything but ordinary (ordinary) Im anything but ordinary (ordinary)
Edit: This song also fits for how I am now:
"Let me go" ~ 3 Doors down
One more kiss could be the best thing But one more lie could be the worst And all these thoughts are never resting And you're not something I deserve
In my head there's only you now This world falls on me In this world there's real and make believe And this seems real to me
[Chorus] You love me but you don't know who I am I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand And you love me but you don't know who I am So let me go Let me go
I dream ahead to what I hope for And I turn my back on loving you How can this love be a good thing When I know what I'm goin through
In my head there's only you now This world falls on me In this world there's real and make believe And this seems real to me
You love me but you don't know who I am I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand You love me but you don't know who I am So let me go Just Let me goo... Let me go
And no matter how hard I try I can't escape these things inside I know I knowww.. When all the pieces fall apart You will be the only one who knows Who knows
[Chorus] You love me but you don't know who I am I'm torn between this life I lead and where I stand And you love me but you don't know Who I am So let me go Just let me go
And you love me but you don't You love me but you don't You love me but you don't know who I am And you love me but you don't You love me but you don't You love me but you don't know me
I have come to face, none of the g-angels knew me....it was just a front...now I see it. You dont know me, just let me go...Im still thinking, but I can tell now none of you were true friends. Just a lot of it has become apparent this day and yesterday. No one was there to see me cry, none were there to try and calm my nerves...just nothing from teekers, akina, spite, tokioh, rau, living, travis, or even tutsumi..you say your my friends..yet you are not there when I need you the most. "You love me but you dont know me, just let me go" I now see you will never be there, no caring promise can take away the pain thats in me now. If you think Im doing this for attention..you dont really know me then.
Pages in the thread I use to like or hate..now no longer matter: 1943-1945, 2084-2085, 2155-2168, 2271, 2341-2343, 2723-2726, 2608-2614, 2508, 2510-2518, 2675-2678, 2974-2975, 2996-3000, 2986-2988. Sad to leave a thread I once thought I was part of..but I guess its best.
SaraWhiteWolf · Thu Jul 28, 2005 @ 08:29am · 3 Comments |