So, regardless of the fact that I'm trying to change my sexual orientation, I still find myself in need of some outlet for my sexual frustrations. There's this guy in my history class named Blake and he's just amazing. He's a little shorter than I am, which is cool. He has a really cute face and smile and his hair looks great. He's also really toned and dresses in a way that makes everything stand out. And he's not bulky either which is awesome. Besides that, he's really polite and kind. He's one of the popular crowd, so it's really something that he's so nice especially to me. He's straight, of course. Not that I would try to do anything with him anyway.
There's another guy who's in the percussion section with me. He's a freshman though. His name is Jason. Today, some of us were just hangin' out after school, and Jason started playing the piano. Prior to this I already thought he was kinda cute, but when he played the piano I just wanted so badly to like tackle him and make out with him for a week.
I just needed to get some of that out though. I don't really have anyone here that I can talk to about this stuff.
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You have courage smile
I'm bisexual myself, and have a lot of gay friends.
I find it really cute that you like this Jason guy so much, and that him being creative with piano is a turn on for you. Shows you have passion smile
I dont really know how I can help you..
Apart from.. You're going to go through many stages realising who you are. Sexual orientation is a massive thing to admit to, and you've got the guts to admit it to yourself and to gaia.
You'll find it incredibly hard to have relationships and even flings being gay, but dont let that put you off your passion and soul.
Because by God kid, you've got soul.
xxx