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I always say that if I had one wish, I would wish to be straight.
However, I often find myself wishing that there was nothing wrong with being gay so that I could just be and not worry about it.
It's curious. I know being gay is wrong. And I hate it. Or is it that I hate the fact that I'm not allowed to be gay?
If I were straight, I would have nothing to be ashamed of. But if homosexuality weren't a sin, I would be just fine as I am. I suppose either one would be good. I still want to be straight though. Then I would be able to talk to my friends normally, think normally, behave normally, and just bask in the ecstatic normalcy of my normal life.
It's amazing how my one wish is to be just like everyone else.
Is that conviction, or just the cruel world?