ah yes, valentines day. As a holiday I think it's as nice as any other... well halloween still rocks more, and christmas has a better pay off, and better songs, and I do love shopping for others so I guess valentines day is under those.... and I'm off topic. My big rant this year is couples. My room mate has a boyfriend and they're gross right now. So sweet I want to hurl. I only say that because I haven't seen my boyfrend in six weeks and will get to seem him maybe three days and then he'll be gone for florida. forever. He says he'll visit me once a year but.... I don't know. We'll get busy and it won't happen. I don't want this to be the end but we're moving apart. Everyone says I should break up with him but I love him. He's a good guy and I want to be with him forever but it dosen't look like that's going to happen. After college I want to stay here and he may stay there and then... we're apart forever. And I don't like Florida. Pretty but far too hot for my liking. This valentines day I get to spend it in math class and sex-iled from my room for two days, because my room mate wants to spend time with her boy. Well I want to spend time locked in my room, wearing my boyfriends t-shirt, curled in the darkness, feeling bad for myself. I admit it. I had looked forward to spending the day feeling bad for myself. Maybe some cookie dough ice cream, some godiva, some truffles, violent video games and maybe some sappy movies... a day of self indulgence and solitary misery. Not happening. Can't go to my room. Have to stay with friends. Can't be miserable. I believe I've claimed saturday as my misery day then. And I'm not getting out of my night gown. I'm only leaving my room for more ice cream and more movies. Take that. You want to kick my out of my room? Fine. It'll be twice as bad saturday *blows raspberries* I don't really mean that, Friday I'm going ice skating and sunday I'm going to a museum and I'm sure I have some work I could do... The closer we get to valentines day the more vicious and depressed I get. He's sending me a gift... which is very sweet but at the same time... not what I want. He can't give me what I want. I want him to be here, and that will never happen, will it? *sighs* I should just accept it. Oh crap it's late, I didn't even realize. Time for bed so I can wake up and do my silly project and go to my silly class and pretend to be happy.
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 DragonSong · Wed Feb 13, 2008 @ 06:25am · 0 Comments |
