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I do not have anyone to love any longer , all those that I become close to betray me.

Not a single person in this world relizes that just because I seem cold does not mean that ,

I am not sensitive. Out of any man in the world I am perhapes one of the most sensitive.

I care about others , I want to protect others , but after I help those people I get

Betrayed.


These betrayals have left dark spots in my heart.... and that darkness has spread to my

entire body , consuming me with hate , but more greif , remorse , depression , anxiety , and

sadness than anything else. I am in pain.


No one has ever offered to help me through my hard times. I have always been there for

others , now it is they're turn. If they are not there for me.... if they do not help me...

than I will cease to exsist , I will die by my own hand. No matter how much I tell you

that I cannot kill myself do not believe me , for I am lying. I am one who will kill

himself.


I am on the brink of my willpower , on the edge of the cliff. I have no more strength to

stand up , and soon I will fall. I will fall over the edge of the cliff and die.


All I want is kindness.... all I want is someone who will care for me. I want someone who

will...... love me.


I have been born to this world by "A" mother.... a biological one. I do not have a true

mother or father. I have no one that truly loves me , and I never have.



I have no one to hold me , no one to tell me that it will be alright , no one who will let

me cry on they're shoulder , no one who will look me in the eye and say , "someday , things

will change" , I need someone to hold me . someone to pull me away from the edge of this
cliff.

I need someone who will grow old with me , and die with me. If I do not find someone who
loves me soon.... Truly , loves me..... than I will fall.



I will die.



Please , someone..... look me in the eye and tell me..... tell me that you love me.

and don't lie.