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again i am in a place were i often find myself
only tonight is different
im in two places
the other is, like the first, one i visit often
though in this aspect they are alike
they are also very different

the first is in this world
one of, if not, my favorite places to be
even though you sit still
it connects you to many, many other places

the second place is divided in two
each very different from the other
like yin and yang
or happiness and hatred
as a matter of fact, thats exactly it
literally, happiness or hatred

happiness:
it changes often
and any day i would gladly choose it over the other two
it shapes to how i see it
and defines who i am
i visit it frequantly
or try to, in the least

hatred:
darkness, emptiness
a place where the most depressing things lie
any one would be overjoyed to get rid of it
yet none can
it is part of us all, just like the first

as much as i would love to be happy
tonight, unfortunatly, i was thrust into that depressing realm
for my own good i know
but still
thoughts of that power, in my view, can only harm

why cant i be rid of them then?
they are no good
no help
they just cause pain
the list causes pain!
but they're attached
irremoveable
or so i know

but i had to bring them up
i had to face them
yet even though i fought so few of them...

so many feelings rush about
all with varying strength
at the end, a pumbled feeling emmerges
in constanly injures the already seriously wounded mind
till you feel like death would be a blessing
yet this blessing doesn't come
you are forced to indure

finally the battle is through
the enemy: warded off
but, much to your dismay, the war is not
for as long as we live
all must battle the endless war
the only escape...
death

yet many have help
reinforcements you might say
they assist you in battle
and cut down the majority of the injuries

despite that, the battle still occured
and the war won't end
but for now, it is put on hold
this night of troubles is over
so we leave the next battle for another

till then...
we live
and try to get by