Why do i feel like s**t all of a sudden? Why do i feel like im cracking into pieces and nobody but you can save me? I miss you, but I don't think I can stand to let you see me like this! I'm falling apart, putting a fake smile on everything so my family won't think anything's wrong. But there is, there is. I feel like crying but i'm all out of tears. My life doesn't really matter to me anymore. In fact NOTHING does anymore. Only you, my love, only you. This is killing me, not seeing you! I don't think I can fake being happy for much longer. I can't even sleep knowing that you're not there, and never be there again. I can't help remembering all the little things, like the scent of your shirt thats no longer here, the way your hair blows in the wind, the way you smile at me. I feel like i'm losing myself in you, and everytime i close my eyes I see you! I'm only happy when I'm with you...You're taking me over and there's nothing I can do about it. There's not a second that goes by without me missing you or wanting to be with you. Waking up in the morning is complete torture because you're not there. i need you here with me. Reality sucks, cause atleast you're there in my dreams. Everything i do reminds me of you, and all the songs I hear on my mp3 player remind me of you...The days are way too long without you, and at night I can't even sleep cause I'm thinking about you and how you're not there with me. I CAN'T EVEN CRY ANYMORE!!! Every day without you is pure agony and torture. I can't even stand seeing the stuff you gave me around my room. Wearing your shirt is torture to me now...I MISS YOU AND I CAN'T TAKE BEING WITHOUT YOU FOR MUCH LONGER MY LOVE...my love, my love, i love you...
· Fri Jan 04, 2008 @ 10:14pm · 0 Comments