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today i called my mate...
he just wasnt himself...he was telling me all these horrid things..
about how he was picking on another girl for the fun of it...and some bad things going on with some others im not going to mention...its to upsetting to think about let alone type...I asked him whats wrong..and whats going on...but he says there is nothing...
i dont want to bother him by being obsessive over it...
but i dont want to ignore it if something really IS going on...
i just felt like i wasnt talkin to HIM at all....his tone was even different...

it almost made me uncomfortable...
******** it...it DID make me feel uncomfortable...

there are times when he isnt aware of his tone and doesnt realize how it sounds to me...he has been getting MUCH better with that...he has come a long way since we first started dating...he has made alot of changes for me...
but tonight just froze me...
he sounded cold even...
but not at me...he didnt say anything directed at me...
its just im used to him being compassionate even to those who dont deserve it...
and talking to him on the phone today was hard for me since i was listening to someone i never met....