Alex is so blind... I've been acting like him to see how he's been acting [and he
doesn't like it] and he says that I changed... he's so dumb to NOT see that.. and let
me guess.. IF I turn against Brittany I bet he'll act like a ******** b***h about
it...Sorry I just can't let things like this go...It's very hard to. Ever since he's been
getting close to her.He's been so distant with me. IDK...Every time I talk to him the
next day he would act like nothing happened.... And Ever since Jerome and Brittany
got together he's been bothering them.. I can see right through him..HE'S FRIKKIN
JEALOUS OF JEROME...I know he still likes Brittany.. otherwise he would ACTUALLY
be acting like a real boyfriend...Damn. IDK why I can't just get over it.. It just hurts
you know IT REALLY DOES....Unless he can find a way to actually make me feel
better or at least forget about the really bad times...He's been neglecting me for a
while and i feel worse than before...You know he used to come to me every time i
was alone... He used to call every time he knew i was depressed......I just wish he
was there more often..[Being classmates doesn't count] When i mean being there.. I
mean been a shoulder to lean on.. When I see other couples around MHS, I get kind
of sad. Alex and I never have that anymore..Even during Rozette's Bday party.. He
kept giving me this attitude that really pissed me off...I wanted to slap him so damn
badly...DAMN..I became so damn paranoid because of him. And when i start acting
paranoid, that would mean i'm starting to ******** up even more by the minute..
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