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It has been some time, hasn't it..? I won't attempt to update everything that happened... But I think its safe to say, that within the time between when I last wrote, and now; I have thoroughly succeeded in destroying my own life.
I wife has left me...and my son...my dearest son...she has taken with her. I don't know if I will ever see them again. I was a fool... Such a fool.
To my shame, I have taken to drinking all over again. I suppose I'm a hopeless case; but at this point it doesn't seem to much matter. In my mind I've been entertaining thoughts of following in my father's footsteps; if not for the promise I made to my son. Though, I'm not sure if he would even know if I did now; or if it would make a difference to him. But a promise is a promise.
I feel like such a failure... A failure as a husband, a failure as a father... My life never meant much before my family...and now without them, it doesn't mean much again. I just wasn't aware before, of how little it meant. But having had something to live for...now I know what I've lost; and I don't know how I lived without it in the first place.
I want to see my son again...my beautiful little boy... I was his hero; and I failed him...
Don't expect much more writing from me from now on...
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Give yourself permission and enjoy a safe, blessed and sober season.....