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Weird or obsessed?!? either way i'm annoyed
Okay, so last November I'm not sure when I met this guy named Michael. (Online of course) Well we talked for a little while and really got to know each other. Then he asked me out...I said yes. Cuz I mean i really loved this guy...REALLY loved him. Well March 16th or 17th of this year he asked me to marry him on gaia....I said yes to that too...i was head over heels for him by now. Well sometime in April my interent was shut off so I had to use my schools computer to talk to him..but we never talked as much cuz we were never on at the same time. Well I became depressed...like super depressed...so I picked up smoking cigs again. Something I promised him I would never do...he's sXe and they are against drugs and smoking and drinking and stuff like that. Well it was only for three days...I was planning to tell him, but my older sister jessica beat me to it. She told him and when he asked me about it...I couldn't lie to him..so i told him "yes" which was the truth. well he didn't reply back to that message so the next day i wrote him and asked if we were over..he said yes. I wanted to explain everything to him..but I didn't think he would listen. So we were over. I cried for maybe 2 hours in front of my sisters and then later on that night before i went to bed. It took me a while to get him to forgive me...finally he did. But now he still didn't reply to my messages and it was just killing me. Now he rarely ever gets on...and i'm pretty much heartbroken. But i don't blame him..I brought it on myself. Anyways..I can't stop thinking about him..and that's what annoys me! I can't last very long in any relationship because I always end up wishing the guy i'm dating is Michael. And i even called my boyfriend michael a couple times. I don't know what is wrong with me...but i don't understand why i can't get over him. i get over guys really easily..but not him. We dated for 7 months...that isn't very long..what's wrong with me!!!!!!!
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