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well pat has left for the military....I'm completely emotionaly destroyed. I can't stop crying and I'm getting sick. I can't talk to him except through mail. I won't ever get to see him face. or feel his touch or touch him. I won't be able to be held or have him wipe away my tears. I miss im so much that its destroying me. of course my mom doesn't care that I'm like this. I'm basicaly crying myself to sleep every night and I just wish that I could hold him one more time. I...I just want him back now I need to see him. but I won't get to.it is just completely destroying me.