so after that horrible pm i got from russells friend and a long day of crying and breaking down. i get online again to see how she replied to me.
'hey i have 4 messages'
wow really?
so i click my inbox and the first thing i see is .[x]Neon.Trip[x]. i click it so fast i don't know how i aimed so well.
.[x]Neon.Trip[x].
)@(#)(@# Don't ******** believe a word Anna said!! D:< I'm perfectly fine D:< !!! i'm gonna kill that b***h D:<<<!! God love please be okay ;o; I'm SOOO SORRY that she ******** did this D:<. she said she'd get me back, but i didn't think she'd be so fecking heartless D:< ! STUPID c**t D:< -fumes- D:< Ok OK i guess i should explain what's happened.
So the other day I found out that our land was being taken over by the city to rebuild some stupid city crap and we are being forced to move. I was hanging out with my friends and asked if JESSICA could get ahold of you and tell you for me D:<
Meanwhile, I found out that my friend ANNA was doing drugs to cram for her damn test or something stupid like that. so I took it upon myself to tell her mother so she wouldn't end up fecking dead D:< She got pissed off, hit me, and yelled at me saying it wasn't my place to tell her mom s**t and she'd get me back for 'ruining her life' D:<<! I ******** hate her D:< !!!!
So needless to say when she saw her, and she said to say goodbye to you, I ******** flipped a lid D:< So now i'm at the library because my computer's in a fecking box D:< and she wants to pull this s**t D:< if my chest didn't hurt so bad i'd ******** kick her a** D:<!!!!
-sighs- Damnit -tries to calm down- forgive me for what she said love if i'd known she'd do something like this i would have told her to go PISS OFF and ******** OD for all i care D:< GAH! -shakes-
So the other day I found out that our land was being taken over by the city to rebuild some stupid city crap and we are being forced to move. I was hanging out with my friends and asked if JESSICA could get ahold of you and tell you for me D:<
Meanwhile, I found out that my friend ANNA was doing drugs to cram for her damn test or something stupid like that. so I took it upon myself to tell her mother so she wouldn't end up fecking dead D:< She got pissed off, hit me, and yelled at me saying it wasn't my place to tell her mom s**t and she'd get me back for 'ruining her life' D:<<! I ******** hate her D:< !!!!
So needless to say when she saw her, and she said to say goodbye to you, I ******** flipped a lid D:< So now i'm at the library because my computer's in a fecking box D:< and she wants to pull this s**t D:< if my chest didn't hurt so bad i'd ******** kick her a** D:<!!!!
-sighs- Damnit -tries to calm down- forgive me for what she said love if i'd known she'd do something like this i would have told her to go PISS OFF and ******** OD for all i care D:< GAH! -shakes-
i honestly didn't know what to feel at first. i just kinda cried. i was so happy and so relieved. it was like the weight was lifted and i could actually smile.
i clicked on the girls pm and she was still going with it. about russ dying. i then asked her why she felt the need to take her anger of russ out on me and if she realized what she did to me. i fall into deep dark depressions. i was so angry, but at the same time, i was sooo happy it was just a prank.
thank god. russ can be mad for the both of us, cause i'm really more happy then anything.
it made me want to hold him more and never let go. i also then wondered why he would say c**t but censor ******** in his pm. o-0 well whatever.
i mainly feel bad for that girl, throwing away a friendship and destroying a potencial one all over a petty thing like drugs. once she hits rock bottom and all her druggy friends abandon her, she will wish she had friends like russ to care about her like that. she will be all alone if she burns all her bridges.
i was told she already tried to appologize to russ but he won't have it. i still can't understand how doing that to me was going to get any revenge. what was i going to do, dump him...or was she trying to depress me to the point of suicide so it would hurt russell?
that's seriously ******** up, beyond any reason.
luckily for russell though, i'd never kill myself over hear say. i was actually going to ask for his mom's number to call her and confirm the situation myself. it was a desprate 'in shock/denile' thing. hearing it from the mouth would have been a better conclusion.
as far as suicide. i don't know if i would, but...i can't say i've ever felt the pain of loosing the love of my life to death...but just that feeling in that 24 hours of panic...was nearly unbearable....
but at least he's ok. *nods and knocks on wood*
~Shin
