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“You’re not doing it right not doing it right” the jackdaw this morning yelled as blood ran profusely through cuts along my arm. “Not right not right” he mocked more jumping from rock to rock.
I sighed and grumbled wetting my arm in the stream letting blood twist and rive to disappear in the current. “Well you ******** that’s what you told me to do!” I yelled my, wings flaring.
Each day that jackdaw had become more and more like the stories he told of himself. Horrible things yet he smiled all the same his erratically annoying voice squawking something that made no sense. A big beast of a demon he was portrayed and often warned to me about, his big black wings along with his mischievous and irritating attitude is what earned him the name, otherwise he was more mammalian then an part of the avers demons.
He has large curled horns under a mane of fire red mostly traveling like a four legged beast rather then stand up, he was hunched but defiantly sapient then most monsters were. Despite his already scary look no one saw that jackdaw was brilliant, yes mad but brilliant.
So he laughed and mocked more “no not true!” he jumped a bit more dodging back and forth as I threw rocks at him. He only smiled more and more his sharp teeth showing, it sent a shiver down my spine. “I said I said” he echoed himself “fight and learn hurt and burn but come out a better person!!”
Jackdaw laughed homogenously a large feral roaring laugh that made small mammals, even moderately large run and hide.
”that’s what I was doing…”I muttered lying. The truth was, I didn’t have a clue what he meant.
It had been a while but I still didn’t’ understand the jackdaw’s fragmented annoying words. At first I was just a new little thing stumbling through the light just trying to thrive. Certainly I was interesting I was mammalian but…with wings. Furry and leathery at the same time not quite certain of myself, what type of demon was I? Neither bird nor mammal and no one could quite understand me. So for then I just pushed it off and let life fly past, but I had become interested in the jackdaw Ever since the fox lead me to him despite my first impressions I certainly found something new.
He only complemented me at first, those I could understand and of course I grew but more and more he criticized throwing me off balance. I’d become unstable and jackdaw made less sense then ever.
So I continued to hurt myself with a stone next to the river bed and jackdaw just screamed and screamed more. I tried different things all day, burning, pionson, other types of pain and by the end of the day I became so tired and sick that I pashed out under the tree where I often met with jackdaw.
In the morning he was still there and with a worried look. “You hurt yourself…” he muttered almost like a whine. “Why?”
“You told me to!!” I yelled again before rolling over and vomiting. Jackdaw pulled me up helping me to sit under the tree.
“No no that’s not what I meant!!” he said frantically. “I said fight and learn hurt and burn but come out a better person!”
With my rage intact I couldn’t take it anymore, I cried frantically then tried my best. to hit him. He only jumped away and ran off. I cursed and writhed and yelled and screamed. All sorts of mean things, swears and curses all directed towards him. Then spent the rest of the day sick trying to eat and fell asleep.
In the night a friend of mine found me lying under the tree. A big red brown wolf demon walked by spotting me there. He ran over quickly examining me and put some sort of concoction down my thought that made me gag.
When I was able to speak I cursed and yelled more and more. Finally calming down I was able to relate my story to bane who nodded.
He often was there for me, a magical person with many tips and insights. Among all demons he had a special talent of visions and help. He could cure any illness but preferred to do so spiritually.
Bane smiled muttering “well he was right…”
It made my head spin and the argument started yet after only an hour I understood his point, what I had said and what was wrong that started my fight.
“I’m sorry…” I muttered feeling ashamed.
“Don’t be sorry just get hurt and learn and become a better person.”He said wistfully/
My jaw dropped and I scrambled to my feet. “I’ll be okay I’ll see you tomorrow” was all that bane heard before I ran.
“Jackdaw!! jackdaw!!” I yelled as I ran past tree after tree not one occupied by that great big beast. And after hours of searching I still couldn’t find him. I dropped under a tree and cried.
“Why do you cry?” came a quite dark, but concerned voice. Leaning in the tree was Vincent, he resembled much of jackdaw but instead he was completely black. He had become as much a friend as jackdaw but more reserved then him.
“I need to talk to jackdaw” I said quietly and sadly.
“That way…”Vincent pointed down to a pile of rocks in an opening of the trees where light shined through.
Walking into the opening I found jackdaw and sat by him. He looked up and fell back surprised. I laughed and with my laughter came his as well, until both of us could hardly breathe.
“Well ill’ ones back learn yes?” he asked quietly concerned.
“Yes…very much so…” I answered back and he smiled.
“I’ve learned the criticism, the jokes, I thought you didn’t care” I admitted to him.” But you were only teaching me things that I didn’t understand until now. When you meant pain you meant with friends or family and to learn was to understand why!”
“Yes and???” he said happily back “what else what else?”
“All of your other lessons: talk and listen, see then hear, change and try to do better then before”
Jackdaw jumped up happily “yes yes now what Aaron?”