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Dense. people are dense. they see things, but they never FOCUS. I feel like I was sprayed with weed-killer. I feel as if I'm sooo excited but I'm holding myself behind a locked gate still contemplating whether I whould hop the fence or go back for the key. I want to jump, do what I know I can do... But unable to do it because I can't. I just don't feel right, but in reality I'm not sad. I never really have been those emotions because how can you be such things when you don't understand them? How can you define something as a specific emotion when you don't know what an emotion is or even which one it is. The only time I've expressed emotion was when it was to my own ends. WHen it helped me. Depending on the person I'm conversing with, I can be as smart or dumb or emotional based on them. It's a game in reality. I can be sooo dumb at the same time as being smart since you don't always converse with one person. I can also be hilariously smart. So usually my age in reality is an undefined mass of raw meat that is rented to certain ppl. T.T So... I just don't understand you humans.