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Hello ladies and gents. I'm a passing-through Kamen Rider, a relic of Gaia's history ('07), a living legend, the unpredictable, and a now occasional user of this website. Don't you forget it! I go by a lot of names for peers that know me as but I'll leave it to them to get the hint. I am a multi-cosplayer with many to count and incomparable to none. My Gaia journey is to befriend as many like-minded cosplayers that enjoy the craft and making the best for others to see. Other than that, you may want to grab some snacks and some drinks because you're in for a treat reading my seemingly long bio. It's not everyday you see greatness from the underground legend.

My civilian name is Charles but you can call me Chad. No relation to the Kingdom Hearts and Final Fantasy Group. If any out there mislabel me as such, go see the door. As for the rest of you still here.. let's continue. I am a bit of wild card where your impression will vary. I am someone who wears his heart on his sleeve. On one hand, I am a pretty chill dude all things considered when I'm hanging with people I can trust. As for strangers and colleagues alike, do work up the effort to earning my trust otherwise you're irrelevant to me, sorry. I'm only human. I am one careful individual that has a lot priorities under his belt. I used to be a people's pleaser in the past but after playing the long game I stopped, got tired, and stood up for myself. In life, people would rather trust someone genuine and real over fakes who are way past their golden years or to con others out of their happiness. I don't tolerate such people just because others like myself live a good and social life. I believe in the old saying of "mind your own business." Just because we live para-social lives, doesn't mean ruining over one's life. Common sense is lacking and I will be that guy to set the record straight. And I mean this in the most respectful way possible, don't f*ck with me or anyone I care about.

Why do I cosplay in Gaia? Simple really: it's making a found family community of friends and sharing our passion into creating great cosplays. I came from humble beginnings where I first chased the most relevant anime at the time since joining this site. Overtime, I improved the craft knowing full well I became arrogant and confident. High quality work demands plenty of thought and care to making the best. I am a non-competitive cosplayer for being impossible to compete. I am a force of nature. I also am the type of person who sees a person's worth by playing into their strengths. Everyone has creative differences and a community of cosplayers must be lead through non-toxic standards as well as accessibility. It may seem like I set a high bar judged by my own beliefs and unobtainable goals, but I see my comrades as individuals standing alongside me rather than behind me. I participate in contests for fun but my goal is usually helping my comrades shine on their own. A Great community of Cosplayers is a bud waiting to bloom. Such as the petals of The Greats once they reach maturity. I am the gardener who will watch it grow and the one that looks at it proudly. Cosplay is art and I refuse to let it be desensitized by low effort trash tarnishing the art.

I'm an anime binger, tokusatsu enthusiast, manga reader, music listener, a gamer, college graduate, and an upcoming Graphic Designer. Saying all that is a mouthful but you get the idea. I have a lot of things that I like but can't list them all in this one section. To summarize, I like a lot of things that I personally enjoy when it comes to art and the medium revolving around it. My taste is subjective, however I'm not afraid in trying out new things outside my interest from friend recommendations as long as we vibe. I'm not particularly picky but I will openly state if it isn't for me but it doesn't change my views on my friends. I'm open to very many things on what I personally think is cool and just go from there. But yeah, my current obsession to Kamen Rider resonated with me onto a protagonist that is literally an outsider. The fact that one of them is able to BE any rider with the theme around cameras, is one hell of a cool gimmick and I borrow heavily his characteristics with a hint of myself in there. I'm fairly into lofi/chill-inspired beats just to show my chill side. Plenty to go around with what I'm interested in, but I have no shame in it.

For transparency; I'm an optimists and realists with no agenda. I firmly believe in truth, fairness, and information but I don't run my mouth about it like it is gospel. I follow a personal policy; To help aid the weak while having flaws as a person. We are all adults and we decide for ourselves how to handle important information responsibly. I'm kind enough to share information for free under a person-to-person business. Nothing more. I've made a lot of enemies in my lifetime but at the end of the day, I want peace. It's a tall ask to follow but nothing is going to stop me from fulfilling my selfish creed. I respect very few people worth my time and I will be that honest blunt with common sense in the room. I'm also very punctual and organized so my expectations for a lot of individuals is to plan sh*t out while letting me know in advance. I have sh*t to do with limited time like every other person so I expect my time to be used wisely.

In the end, I have been on this website and personal journey for many years. It's sad to say that I will inevitably retire this place someday. I've made my peace with it growing up, met amazing people, lost others along the way. But at the end of it all, I don't regret any of it. While I would like to make amends and a desire to have one last word with a certain individual, many of us have personal lives and moved on. All this is wishful thinking, but a man can dream.

It's been a fresh of breathe air to express this much about myself but this is where I have to end it for now. Reach out to me while you still can and sayonara!
To my former beloved,

I am sorry. Hand to my heart, I was wrong in how I handled our last days together. I regret not being open with you more often and how it made everything one-sided. Your last words truly was heartbreaking and the hardest pill to swallow but I, for the first time, I oppose your final sentiments. As much it pains me to, I refuse to ignore and forget the entire history of you. You were my world, my everything. The flaws you brought up about yourself was the main reason I love you. If I had said this WAY sooner and shared you more into my life especially my secrets, we would still be together. I was the one who pushed you away and that's why I'm telling you that I am going to own up to it. I had so much going through to my life at the time where I was truly alone and hated every moment on things I didn't want to do. I bottled up my emotions and kept putting on a false bravado long enough to hide away my pain. I was, truly unhappy, not from our relationship but at the things I had to do, as a growing and independent adult. I wasn't ready to be an adult at the time and at worst... I wasn't ready to disappoint you. I'm far from being a perfect individual, but having to lie to myself and to take my frustration out on my family and friends over telling you, my love... was my own self destruction. With the pain I was going through, you don't deserve the trauma I'd do to you. I wouldn't forgive myself and the fear of what I'd become, which is why I had I requested we take a break to self reflect towards the end. I needed the time to soul search and fix my terrible living condition but I'm sure you also did the same.

After realizing where I went wrong, I finally understood how late I was for making you wait when you needed me the most. Where my priorities were and our time had strained, I was overwhelmed that I let my pride get the best of me to where I didn't want you to see me at my most vulnerable but I should have. I was wrong in trying to hide that part of me since from the start, you were always the one reaching out. Had I done my part back then as your partner, equal and lover, then our final days together wouldn't have happened. I can't express it enough how much I've missed you and for how wrong I was to handle things alone. Being an adult is hard and I've paid the price for it. You and I... we were both wrong in settling things separately and letting outside influences making the decisions for us. We were both trying to keep the dream of our love, passion, and youth for each other alive but life happens in the ever so growing struggle. I will say it again: I am sorry. I didn't have a plan in how I could save our relationship in the end. What was done on your end is never finished on mine. That's why, even when time passes and that you've moved on, my feelings towards you will never change. I want to tell you my side and where I'm coming from. To rectify mistakes and it starts here; I was wrong. Pain and happiness are two sides of the same coin: they're so similar and yet far apart. I felt no hatred, not even bitterness but sometimes, I have to tell myself that its ok to cry and tell the people close to me that I'm not alright. This finally broke me and as I ended let it all out by the help of my loved ones and friends. I learned what it means to being vulnerable and how it can make you stronger after accepting where I failed and needing to hear the right words indirectly from others. I had forgotten the whole point of a relationship, the entire reason that I chose to be with you in the first place was that we were suppose to be a team. Perfectly suited, perfectly matched... perfectly perfect. I never once thought I was deserving of love since the day I met you. During that time, I never felt so alone since you left that day and the days I was by myself in my own thoughts, the memories came flooding back. When I try to give you my goodbye through a gift, I lied about it as I truly didn't have the heart to say it. Even when I lie to myself, the heart never forgets. That's what it means to truly love someone, is when they're out of your life is the time you grow.

I've never talked this much about myself before but better to say it all here before the worst comes. This will be the last time I'll ever feel this way for a long time and I may not be on this site for long. I know I don't have the right to find happiness with you but you have my unconditional love from a far and I hope you're doing alright. It's truly unfortunate but I never regret falling in love with you since the day we met. So, I have one proposition for you: Please let go of the burden you put yourself through. I know it's hard but you should learn to forgive yourself and realize your self worth. You've done many things for others and was always present, that I sometimes wish you should be a little selfish and believe in yourself. But, I know deep down you're still scared to confront me and doubt yourself. You may think running away and ignoring me would protect you from hurt and close yourself off. But, I've come to reason not to hold it against you until you're ready to come to terms. I never had bad intentions to ruin where you are in life. I'm a man of reason and a problem solver. I won't hide anything anymore when its with you and if I can't tell it to you personally, then this letter shall remain til the test of time. You are one awesome woman I have the pleasure of meeting. I am glad to have met you and at the same time apologize that I hurt you. Fate brought us together and gave us a reason to grow. I have grown plenty but I'm learning little by little to just have fun staying true to myself. I will never forget about you for as long as I live and I will convey it with this last sentiment in the form of a poem: Wishes that should've been, my vision blurred and invisible. While we're forever distant, there was light. That love stamped into my heart, I'll remember forever. To you that's far away. I love you.