One thing I can say about my partner is that when it comes to our safety - he doesn’t play about it.
Especially when he has never suppose to ever have kids. He had a 3% chance at most. It’s not likely he didn’t try to start a family with past partners, but never happened. He gave up on ever having kids. And then here I come and now we have two lol.
Our first daughter ( Ameila ) that we nicknamed Millie is because she is his one in a million
And then when our second came her nickname is Rosie. Which leads back to the few first month we were together when he told me “ I’m going to give you a million roses one day “ ❤️
It was hard to deal with for a while.
I couldn’t stop heading the sound of the gun and my neighbor hitting the ground. My mind tormented me for a while. At the time I was home along with my oldest and pregnant when it happened. I called up my man and he told me where to go to stay to get us out of there. I stayed at his parents how for a couple of days. I only went back there after the guy was finally arrested after being on the run. I felt bad for my neighbor because he was the nicest man you’d ever meet. Only 27 too.
Granted we were planning to move anyone but that kicked it into high gear. But now we are in a much safer area, we do have a few neighbors but also four acres so we can’t see them or hear them lol. I love I can sit out on my porch with my babies in the peace and quite of nature. Hate the dang bugs of the south tho 😑 and don’t get me started on the heat wave 💀
4am feeding my youngest while replying back to you and I already forgot what you said and now I’m blanking on what I’m going to say. And hoping this all makes sense since keeping my eyes open is the hardest part for me. I thought after hosting my oldest first birthday party I would get to relax… nope. And now on Thursday I’m hosting a cousin down for the family before all of my babies cousins either go back to school, parents working, etc. One of the last few days of summer they can all see one another. I don’t know why I put so much on my plate. Along with the million of unfinished projects in this house. But I’m not complaining because this home is better and safer than our one. The last one I was home alone with my oldest at the time while pregnant and that night I watched a man shoot and kill our neighbor right in front of me. Got the heck out of dodge after that. Long story about that whole situation over.
It varies. Sometimes I can take naps, but other times I could lay my oldest down and then the little one wakes up, vise versa. But a lot of the time I’m just so go go go to get things done I just don’t stop to relax until it’s time for my littlest last bottle of the night. I think my body is just getting use to running on fumes. Which isn’t great for me but I haven’t crashed yet.
And if you want a third, I would say now would be a good time because by at least the time the baby is born the others should be 3&5. They will definitely know more and understand more. Plus them being in school will also give you alone time at home with the baby. I know myself personally I could not handle a third. Not mentally or physically. My oldest put me through the ringing when she was born. Thankfully my youngest was easy but I had a medical scare leading up to the birth so it was iffy. I’m just trying to let myself heal and maybe talk about a third in a few years. I did tell him that I’ll be open to a third but he has until I’m 40 to decide if he does. ( I’m 31 now ). After I’m 40 - thinking health wise, I don’t think I can
I can’t believe it’s been three years since we last talked.
But life has been kicking my butt for some time now.
My mom passed away, fell out of touch with my dad ( long story )
Found out I was expecting and had my baby girl Amelia
Found out I was expecting again and has my baby girl Athena a year later.
Amelia will be 1 on 7/7
And Athena just turned 1 month old on 6/27 ( she was born 5/27 )
So Irish twins
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But I hope you have been doing good
Especially when he has never suppose to ever have kids. He had a 3% chance at most. It’s not likely he didn’t try to start a family with past partners, but never happened. He gave up on ever having kids. And then here I come and now we have two lol.
Our first daughter ( Ameila ) that we nicknamed Millie is because she is his one in a million
And then when our second came her nickname is Rosie. Which leads back to the few first month we were together when he told me “ I’m going to give you a million roses one day “ ❤️
I couldn’t stop heading the sound of the gun and my neighbor hitting the ground. My mind tormented me for a while. At the time I was home along with my oldest and pregnant when it happened. I called up my man and he told me where to go to stay to get us out of there. I stayed at his parents how for a couple of days. I only went back there after the guy was finally arrested after being on the run. I felt bad for my neighbor because he was the nicest man you’d ever meet. Only 27 too.
Granted we were planning to move anyone but that kicked it into high gear. But now we are in a much safer area, we do have a few neighbors but also four acres so we can’t see them or hear them lol. I love I can sit out on my porch with my babies in the peace and quite of nature. Hate the dang bugs of the south tho 😑 and don’t get me started on the heat wave 💀
And if you want a third, I would say now would be a good time because by at least the time the baby is born the others should be 3&5. They will definitely know more and understand more. Plus them being in school will also give you alone time at home with the baby. I know myself personally I could not handle a third. Not mentally or physically. My oldest put me through the ringing when she was born. Thankfully my youngest was easy but I had a medical scare leading up to the birth so it was iffy. I’m just trying to let myself heal and maybe talk about a third in a few years. I did tell him that I’ll be open to a third but he has until I’m 40 to decide if he does. ( I’m 31 now ). After I’m 40 - thinking health wise, I don’t think I can
I know I can’t blame my 6 week old but still 😂
I wish I could. So sorry in advance if this is gibberish lol
Try to feed her now.
But how about you a
But life has been kicking my butt for some time now.
My mom passed away, fell out of touch with my dad ( long story )
Found out I was expecting and had my baby girl Amelia
Found out I was expecting again and has my baby girl Athena a year later.
Amelia will be 1 on 7/7
And Athena just turned 1 month old on 6/27 ( she was born 5/27 )
So Irish twins
It’s been almost four years since I’ve been on here.
How have you been?