"I love you, with all my heart...
But you don't love me back.
I think about you all the time...
But you never even glance.
I know you, I know everything...
But... you'll never know me.
I'm sorry I ever loved you."
- Carolyn AV

"Music. Beauty to your ears and mind. Lyrics are but words that describe the truth, sound is what explains the unexplainable, and music, put together, can describe the very core of human. But never the extent. Maybe a simple feeling or two, maybe a section of ones beliefs. Maybe the song explains a bit of your life at a certain point, but everything changes.

Always consider the following:

Life goes on, and nothing can explain it. Not even the sweet, beautiful sound of music. Not even the simple touch of human flesh. Not even the simple whisper of the wind and rain patter against the dirt. Nor the feeling of love. Life is much much more than that, and is something that can never be explained. And that can never be labeled or given to a certain thing. Everything you do, is woven together to create the breathtaking tapestry that is your life. Nothing can ever be true for oh so long, and nothing can ever explain YOU. You have no label, and neither does your life. Not “terrible” not “perfect”, considering the fact that we are only human and there always seems to be something wrong. Including those who say their lives are “perfect”.

Music. Beauty to your ears and mind, but remember that nothing, can ever explain what's really there. Not even yourself. You may never even find yourself capable of truly knowing yourself. Everyone leans on one thing, my thing is music; but here's the catch:



Don't rely on just one thing. Or you'll end up with simply nothing.

Always remember yourself.

And that will lead the way through life.



Although the meaning of life is not explainable, and even through these words you've barely scratched the surface. But eventually you will figure it out.



Just never let go of your grasp on yourself.”

- Carolyn Ann Van Horsen

LIFE IS ONLY AS HAPPY AS YOU MAKE IT SEEM.

So learn your part.
Dont get lost.
Hold onto yourself.
Because in the end you'll have nothing.
BECAUSE NOTHING
LASTS.

You never listen.
Well thats your fault.

YOU'RE THE ONE THAT DIDNT SEE IT!

Rain is the purity that I call beautiful.

And love.

Take the time just to listen
When the voices screaming are much too loud
Take a look in the distance
Try and see it all

Chances are that you might find
That we share a common discomfort now
I feel I'm walking a fine line
Tell me only if it's real

Still I'm on my way
(On and on it goes)
Vacant hope to take

Hey!
I can't live in here for another day
Darkness has kept the light concealed
Grim as ever
Hold on to faith as I dig another grave
Meanwhile the mice endure the wheel
Real as ever
And it seems I've been buried alive

I walk the fields through the fire
Taking steps until I found solid ground
Followed dreams, reaching higher
Couldn't survive the fall

Much has changed since the last time
And I feel a little less certain now
You know I jumped at the first sign
Tell me only if it's real

Memories seem to fade
(On and on it goes)
Wash my view away

Hey!
I can't live in here for another day
Darkness has kept the light concealed
Grim as ever
Hold on to faith as I dig another grave
Meanwhile the mice endure the wheel
Real as ever
And I'm chained like a slave
Trapped in the dark
Slammed all the locks
Death calls my name
And it seems I've been buried alive

Take you down now
Burn it all out
Throw you all around
Get your ********' HANDS OFF ME!

What's it feel like?
Took the wrong route
Watch it fall apart
Now you're knockin' AT THE WRONG GATE!

For you to pay the toll
A price for you alone
The only deal you'll find
I'll gladly take your soul

While it seems sick
Sober up quick
Psycho lunatic crushing you with
HANDS OF FATE!

Shame to find out
When it's too late
But you're all the same
Trapped inside INFERNO AWAITS!

Evil thoughts can hide
I'll help release the mind
I'll peel away the skin
Release the dark within

This is now your life
Strike you from the light
This is now your life
Die, buried alive [x3]

Never feared for anything.
Never shamed but never free.
A laugh that healed the broken heart with all that it could.

Lived the life so endlessly.
Saw beyond what others see.
I tried to heal your broken heart with all that I could.

Will you stay?
Will you stay away forever?

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned.
Place and time always on my mind.
I have so much to say but you're so far away.

Plans of what our features hold
Foolish lies of growin' old
It seems we're so invincible, the truth is so cold.

A final song, a last request
A perfect chapter laid to rest
Now and then I try to find a place in my mind.

Where you can say,
You can stay awake forever.

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned.
Place and time always on my mind.
I have so much to say but you're so far away.

Sleep tight, I'm not afraid.
The ones that we love are here with me.
Lay away a place for me
'Cause as soon as I'm done, I'll be on my way
To live eternally.

How do I live without the ones I love?
Time still turns the pages of the book it's burned
Place and time always on my mind
And the light you left remains but it's so hard to stay
I have so much to say but you're so far away.

I love you
You were ready
The pain is strong enough to despise
But I'll see you
When He lets me
Your pain is gone, your hands are tied.

So far away.

And I need you to know

So far away
And I need you to,
Need you to know...

Please go away.