"It's called the gray fallacy. One person says white, another says black, and outside observers assume gray is the truth. The assumption of gray is sloppy, lazy thinking. The fact that one person takes a position that is diametrically opposed to the truth does not then skew reality so the truth is no longer the truth. The truth is still the truth." - Tycho Celchu

What's to say? Well I guess that describes how introspective I am. If I could live my life alone in a hole with just an extensive library and working plumbing I’d be a happy camper. I don't mind social situations. I’d go so far as to say that I love them... however I don't need them to survive. (Talking to myself for hours on end usually suffices). I guess that’s a textbook description of an extroverted introvert.

I spend my day watching and observing others. I try to comprehend their thought processes and understand what they do. Usually I just end up muttering sarcastic remarks to myself about what asses people are. Don't get me wrong... I love people. Well, Love is such a strong word isn’t it?

I’m an insomniac. (It's 4 AM on a We...Thursday as I write this.) I shop for clothing once a year. I’m however quick to judge others on their fashion sense. I may have let myself go but I sure as hell don't want to have to stand by and let the people that I have to stare at daily look like crap. I gave up eating Cows and Pigs in the 5th grade and have continued it to this day. Don't count me as a vegetarian… I still eat plenty of chicken. (Evil pecking bastards.)

I think that while writing this I am second guessing everything I’m saying. So I could be described as far too over analytical. I'm also very eccentric and unorganized. I jump from thought to thought quickly getting as much down as I can before I lose it. If I were to waste my time going back and re-organizing what I have I would lose about 10 other thoughts because of it. That explains why most of what I write including this... is just very poorly structured.

I don’t know the definition of self-esteem. I have a massive inferiority complex which makes me think I’m less than in every respect. To elaborate:

I feel that I: am Defensive, flinch too much, am overly emotional/emotionally sentimental, am oversensitive, have an urge to be social but am always alone, can’t take compliments well, can't be fair and impartial since I mix my emotions too far into everything, always think of the right thing to say 2 seconds after I should have said it, live too much in the past, have a memory worth s**t, let my past hold too much of a sway over me, am sulky, am over-imaginative and prone to weird fantasies, have a lot of mood swings, am overly inclined to unforgiving self-pity (So any kind of hurt, imaginary or real is always magnified and thought on for years.), brood on insults, am easily flattered, am overly interested in what others are thinking, don't take orders or direction well, am overly clingy, am too self-absorbed (Hell, even writing this seems self-absorbed.), procrastinate… with everything, quick tempered, don't let people close to me, tend to be contradictive…

Oh also long winded.

To change gears…I enjoy quite a bit. Water in any form I love. Not just the drink but the ocean, (Well I'd never live near the ocean for fear of a giant wave. Also fiddler crabs. I hate fiddler crabs. Oh I am also afraid of... well name it and I can figure out a reason to be scared of it.) pool, rivers, ice... etc. (Oh I also have a tendency to ramble, so just leave if you think I have already started down that path. I tend to go on unless someone stops me.) I love structured arguments, arguments that let you see another's perspective clearly and discuss things constructively. Movies are also a passion, as well as decent literature. Comedy has always had a special place in my heart. I think I love it so much because it points out the social taboos and flaws that we always try to hide.

Speaking of social taboos, I don't place any restrictions on my conversations. I talk about anything ranging from sexual organs to why I think Conservatives have sticks up their asses. (Not meant to offend anyone... who am I kidding? I don't care if I offended you). Putting limits on what you can speak about in any company limits the spread of knowledge and makes you come across as either condescending or pompous. (In my eyes anyhow). Well I guess I'm a bit pompous too as my motto has always been If you can't say anything nice about something... then sit by me.

On to what I hate. I say hate because I do genuinely despise quite a lot. I don't care for people in general. I hate it when people mispronounce common words such as often, and temperature. I hate getting my picture taken. I don't mind being filmed however. My view on pictures can best be described in this quote from Closer, one of my favorite movies.

"It's a lie. It's a bunch of sad strangers photographed beautifully, and... all the glittering assholes who appreciate art say it's beautiful 'cause that's what they wanna see. But the people in the photos are sad, and alone... But the pictures make the world seem beautiful, so... the exhibition is reassuring which makes it a lie, and everyone loves a big fat lie."

I hate shopping, conservatives, and Ryan Seacrest. I also dislike Tom Hanks (for some irrational reason), people who wear black belts with brown shoes, and the word fabulous.

Enough of my hates. I'll just end this probably over-rambled introduction of myself here and now. (If you've gotten this far, I envy you.)