I hope you're happy, B.
I really do hope this is what you wanted...because it's too late to take back all the harm you've caused. My family wants to pull me out of school and hospitalize me, put me through what they like to call "extensive therapy". I held it all together until you had to go make me feel like a human being again.
Why'd you have to do that, B? Why couldn't you have left me in my oblivious world of ice? Then at least I wouldn't have had this breakdown when you decided to turn your back on me. I thought I could trust you.
At the end of the day you just tossed me aside like a piece of trash with no more than a "sorry" to justify your actions.
B, you are one of my best friends and I say this out of love:
STOP BEING A COWARD.
For ******** sake, deal with your s**t already so it can stop hurting others. We all have our problems but that doesn't give you the right to play the victim 24/7. I won't be the last person that your defeatist attitude hurts so for the love of all that is kinky and made of leather, reevaluate that part of yourself. And do it for YOURSELF, not others. You will be so so so SO much happier if you do. This may have come across as harsh but it needs to. And no, suicide or shutting down emotionally does NOT count as an acceptable solution.
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Raging Breath
This is my journal about what is happening in my everyday life. It's a window into my fears and hopes. Any who read it should respect what I write. If you have something cruel to say, keep it to yourself. CONSTRUCTIVE comments & advice welcomed.
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