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Miss.Panda
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Posted: Mon Jan 23, 2006 @ 01:09am

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	Sigh Miss_Panda Is CONFUSED I dont get it... I love him more than anything, and yet I feel that he doesnt love me the same... there was only a few times when I felt he loved me... >.< I give so much for him, and I almost feel like he doesnt appreciate it... if he wants something...I will do it...if he says something I agree... really honestly and truly I am only happy making him happy... but sometimes I want it back... I almost feel like its a one sided relationship... I give and give to him but my love isnt returned... sigh I know he isnt big into showing his emotions... but he doesnt hold me like he used to. I almost feel like a nusance... but I dont want to be annoying >.< I just want to feel special and loved... to be complimented every now and then... to recieve gifts when I give them... to feel as loved as I try to make him feel... I dont think I am asking for much...>.< But then again, I havent asked... because I am afraid of losing what I have... because I couldnt handle it if he were gone. cry And yet... there are others... 3 other manly menses... 2 of which I have never met... and 1 that I just recently met... that have captured my interests >.< Why isnt the heart ever happy in one place? Why does mine long for adventure? sweatdrop

Posted: Thu Jan 19, 2006 @ 08:33pm

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	Well Well Miss Gaia We know you well.. and now we have been once again caught in your trap of roleplaying o.o Oh geeze So now I have come back to this name.. Only now I have changed it I am Miss_Panda and I wear the name proud... no longer am I BlckRosePdl and never again will I be! ^-^ So Everyone... Welcome Miss_Panda because she is here to stay!

Miss.Panda
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Posted: Mon Feb 28, 2005 @ 03:23am

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	Friend My friend wrote me something...and I cried as I read it... Beautiful rose in the sun frozen now, beauty undone Brittle leaves chip and break to reflect the heart ache her peddles fall one by one she becomes as she begun cold to touch, colder to know just why her black thorns grow beneath the frost shines a light possibilities, what might light named hope keeps her alive light named friends helps her strive and a light named love keeps her from ever throwing her life away.

Posted: Mon Feb 21, 2005 @ 06:06pm

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	sigh I am writing again, This could prove to be a bad thing However I have hit a point in my life where I need some way to vent, so you know whatever! Here is the first one after about a year of nothing...I am sooo rusty! ~Her heart is torn, shattered into bits The beating silenced by the crying of her soul Silently screaming for affection to be returned Knowing full well her fate dashing hopes upon the rocks of eternity a smile painted on someone reaching out with a hand of love retracting as soon as she reached snatching all hope and trust from her she was left alone again her heart silently beating she wished for the end silently screaming for affection her hair swaying in the wind her love denied, lost was a friend wishing this was the end.~ For some reason when I read it I think of a girl sitting on a rock by the sea with her hair covering half of her face...I might draw that later...I might not...all depends on my mood

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