So, as I said in the last post, a lot has changed in the last two years, not much of it pretty. I'm not entirely sure where to start, so I'll start where I left off, I guess.
Shortly after I got that job at Vons, I got Erica back. That went well for a long time, a year, in fact. The job started to suck after a while, but such is life. I eventually let her convince me to move in with her again and that's when everything started to die. First, though, let me explain WHY I let this happen and why it took so long.
I didn't want to move back in with her. It had repeatedly gone poorly in the past, and I wanted no part in it. It was going exceedingly well with us living apart. She would come over when we wanted to spend time together, and she went home when we needed our space, and that's exactly what we needed. However, my mom and I kept getting into fights, and I felt like I was living in an active volcano and I couldn't decide which living situation would be worse, so I get out of the volcano. There wasn't any way I was going to last in the house much longer, being a volcano and all. On a side note, I was doing 3:00 - 12:00 shifts five nights a week. that means after I moved in, I was riding my bike twenty miles (up to a two hour ride) to get back to her home every night.
Not three months later, she dropped me again... for a month...after that was resolved, it took forever to convince me to move back in again... but I did. (I had had a HUGE blowout fight with my mother that resulted in us not ever speaking again and her spreading lies about me. I could right several paragraphs about this, but I don't want to.) At this point, I told my boss I couldn't do the midnight shifts anymore due to the commute. After almost a year, the job started to get so unbearable that I started looking for a different job. This was March last year, and it was the beginning of the end... for good this time.
OH! I FORGOT! I didn't end up going to college. I know I said I was last time, but I didn't. I've even made the decision to do so again since then. Didn't do it then either.
Then my boss started to ******** me with my schedule during my new job search, started putting me back on closings and s**t and then a ten AM the next day, after I said I couldn't close anymore. So I got serious and called out so I could set up an interview. He then proceeded to throw a b***h a** temper tantrum at me over the phone and told me if I didn't come in that day, not to come in at all. So I never went in again. I didn't even get a job where I applied.
That started my six months being jobless, my relationship lasted five. Here we go.
Months went by with no progress, stress grew and grew, arguments picked up again, things started looking real familiar. I tried to get into college again, that didn't work because I couldn't get financial aid. Then Erica started the process of moving to Oregon for family reasons and that brought a whole new level of stress into our already struggling relationship. By the time she left, the hostility and general bullshit had gotten to the point where I couldn't take it anymore and after a blowout fight over the phone, I terminated the relationship and haven't spoken to her since. This was in August, literally one week before what would have been our third anniversary.
One month later I got the job I have now working at a gas station. It's not very glamorous, but I like it. My buddy, Chris got me the interview, which I killed, and I've been working there contently since. I like my coworkers, the manager actually behaves as though his employees are real people, which is a nice change of pace, and it's not that bad of a job. So I'm happy there.
Now, there's someone I haven't mentioned, Becca. We fell out of touch before any of this happened. There are reasons for that, but it's not because of any falling out, so there's nothing I really want so say on that matter. I know all this would have been more bearable with her to talk to, and I hope she knows I still want her friendship back in my life. We've gotten each other through a lot.
We're finally almost current. one more thing before the end of this. It's been six months, but I like a girl. It's too soon to want to give real details, so most of this story will have to wait until the next entry. When I went to the college a lot, I knew this girl there that I would talk to sometimes, but didn't hang out with too much. When I stopped going to the college, we mostly fell out of touch, but within the last couple weeks, we've started talking again and I think there could be potential for building something there. For now, for caution's sake, I'l be taking steps very slowly, but at this point, only time will tell.
Well, that's it for my usual long overdue entry. Stay tuned, change is in the wind.
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Keep in mind, things happen fast, so the most recent entry might be completely out of date. It kinda depends on the date written, I do these every few months or so. Or apparently there can be a year or two gap. WHO KNOWS?
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