If anything in this world is infinate... it must be tears... I thought I had been crying enough during these past days. I thought that I had been having my share of complete breakdowns, but alas... I was wrong. I walked into the bedroom, looked at the bed, lied down and I started to cry... and I cried... and cried.. and cried... I didn't think it'd stop... and it hurted in my head.. and in my chest... I could start to sell tears on bottle. Would be something, eh?
Been doing alot of calling around today... Had to take care of practical things about us moving apart. It was sooo hard... and I cried while doing that as well. It's all jsut so.. surreal... like I'm walking in a dream, but.. then I realise it is really happening.
I left Thor with my mother Tuesday.. I had to get some alone time... I couldn't deal with all these emotions and at the same time give him full attention, I just couldn't. He comes home tomorrow... I should clean and do things.. but.. I always get caught up in tears...
I know.. I should get a grip.. but... it's hard...
Though I miss Thor alot.. and am so glad he will be in my arms tomorrow again...
Even though I know there will be more tears...
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