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「 ✦ a 𝖓𝖎𝖙𝖊𝖌𝖍𝖔𝖚𝖑 ɨ ռ ʋ ɨ օ ʟ ǟ ɮ ʟ ɛ ✦ 」
...let's go to that hidden place.
Reflecting;

OH MAH GAH. WoW!

So its been a while, hasn't it?
If you read this, you are either a friend, a passer by, or someone that I use to know.
Either is endearing.

I started out on Gaia Online when it first launched, probably a year after. And this would be my second account created on Halloween due to boredom. I had that feeling of "Hm maybe I should do Gaia again." And I did.

I met some of my very first best friends on here. I also met many others whom carry a special part in my heart.
I went through a lot with various of people on here. Self-Growth is truly a beautiful thing.

To explain, Back then? I was a person that cling to anything or anyone that made me feel with purpose. So much so, it was my very toxic trait.
Also, it was hard for me to recognize unhealthy behaviors, and mistaken them for "love" "care" when I tolerated certain things. I also became unaware of my own behavior, I was needy, desperate to "fix" things or help people. I wanted to show people that I cared about them. And, I didn't understand, I was too busy trying to need someone, trying to feel mutual depth. People pleasing was my greatest flaw, I did things for love. In reality, healthy bonds you would do things because you are loved. I was inexperienced to interpersonal relationships, but, In hindsight, I was just someone that loved very deeply.

But through the times, I realize it's okay. It really is okay to love deeply.
You won't always vibe with people, and it doesn't necessarily mean it's your fault. It really isn't.
We are all different personalities, with such complex emotions and thought processes. We will all gravitate towards people who we are meant to. And it will be natural. To reiterate, you won't have to force connections, these are mutual bonds.

I let go of all the hurt I endured, as well as the pain of feeling not good enough.
I made peace with people and myself. All is well in my heart. If not, I am still good! Such is mental health: I keep it moving, focusing on my ambitions, and enjoy the small things in life that lit a smile on my face. Reflection is important for this aspect of healing the inner me that desires connections.

I became an adult, that works a full time job, I am often at home resting doing the things I love, such as catching up with favorite shows or even playing my games on the Switch or xbox. If I am being more of a social butterfly, I am out with friends. My favorite thing to do is movie going, honestly! Getting some tasty ramen, and exploring my city.
I got to meet my friend I met on here, from MN. I hope to meet more friends in the future. But that's just an example of how much I come to appreciate the good things in life, that present opportunity.

I have come to appreciate a steadier pace, and a clear mentality.
That isn't to say, I got everything down in my life. It just more or less means, I am more aware, more direct. I have zero tolerance for anything that makes me feel less, or doesn't wish to seek reason.

The world is in shambles as it is, why contribute to it?

As far as Gaia goes, I made a lot of good memories on here.

it's been real!
 





 
 
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