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Staring off into space again... wondering if the words you spoke were ever true.
We can't anymore...
And its all because of him.
Why did he steal you away from me...?
I can't believe he already beat me to it...
Now, I don't have any place inside your heart.
Maybe I'm just being delusional... maybe I shouldn't expect things to turn out well.
Maybe you are just sick and tired of me...

What does he have that I don't...?
And why must he be the only one you give all your attention to...?
Did you ever once think about me...? Wasn't I ever a priority to you? Even more than the friends you already have?
Didn't I have the right to earn your affection?

All this time, I've been hoping for a change....
As soon as it came, however, I quickly took it for granted...
I was being too careful around you... I might've been scared, being around you.
Still, I wanted for you to call my name and not judge me from the things I say.
I know there have been times where I could have taken the initiative...
There have been times where I could just... be with you more...
There were so many things I regret not doing...
Like how I'd mostly decide to stick around, without even trying to talk to you.
I'd always give up easily, especially when you are involved...

"Malchik gay, malchik gay, I can be all you need... won't you please stay with me? Malchik gay, malchik gay...."