Ha ha. i was looking at my other journal post, and it was like "I love him but he doesn`t love me back"
He loves me.
He`s loved me for almost three months.
You`re getting it now.
<3
Dylan, he`s one of those men, ya know. You can alllllllways catogorize them xD
But he`s got something different about him--I know everyone is different, but him... it`s not like the other different neutral
He`s got magenta hair [it used to be this beautiful dark dark brown xD]
Brown eyes with that lovely mossy hint around the pupil.
So, anyway, the first time I went somewhere with him was at Dairy Palace. WE had a few laughs, we talked, got to know eachother.
Then we went to the mall, waited outside in the cold for his brother to pick us up xD
And then spent a day at my house. I showed him around, showed him to the `rents, and animals [I`m acting like he`s a show and tell object xD] then we had this huge fight over the bed-- over who got the wall side.
That resulted in holding his hand and falling asleep right there--in his arms.
We started going out Monday, February fifth.
I`ve had the best time with him.
I`ve laughed so much with him.
I`ve cried so much over him [they`re the most happiest cries ever]
We have hardly ANYTHING in common xD
Oppisites attract. [I agree, just like those damn electrons and protons. stressed ]
I remember the day he gave me a note, that scared me that he didn`t loive me anymore.
I asked him and he said all I should expect from his is trouble, and that he was bi-polar and I should`ve never fallen in love with him.
I tried to kill myself many horrible ways that day.
Getting hit by a semi.
crushing my head into a dresser.
Taking alot of pills that I had no clue what would do.
HAH, those are all p***y ways of killing yourself, but I tried.
I cried every time I thought about him.
I cried when I though of ANYTHING. I relate him to anything and everything.
Then he told me he loved me.
WE`re doing great now.
We`re going to Arizona this summer together.
Letting him meet the father, Grandmother, and friends.
Eh. He`s my life.
Over and out.
 sylawen · Sun Apr 29, 2007 @ 05:14pm · 1 Comments |
