I should be,
but I'm not.
Why can't I be use to this,
I wanna be,
can't become more like you want.
A joke to this life,
I have become.
Lost myself in you,
done everything only to gain none,
well nourished I have become,
on your bullshit lies.
I have yet to understand why,
your against me.
Sorry for not being the average,
just cause love finds me in cyber space,
you critic what you don't know.
Yet you fall in love,
with a prediction from a wedgie board,
fairytale your trying to make true.
Oh well,
guess I never learned the correct rules,
to the dating game you play.
I created my own way,
thinking love is the same,
have made my mistakes,
corrected my game my way.
Now how is love different?
Shards of me,
falling down,
losing myself,
just to drown in you.
Hide inside the mask again,
freak of nature,
your not wanted any way.
Thought I could trust you,
such a fool am I.
Marked failure each time,
like me being black and blue from use,
warn out throw away,
since way back when.
I thought you could,
be my best friend again,
gave you space you requested,
time to think things through.
Here is your bat ad knife,
beat me again stab my heart,
repeat till all is gone,
nothing left to repair.
I won't be here to break,
your fall any more.
Piece of me breakdown,
all trust is gone,
along with my belief in you.
Blackened space,
devoid of sound,
left to remain.
I can't open to you,
without your judgment pouring in.
Close I can't bring you into me,
you won't understand me.
False hope you give,
deeper I become.
No one can see,
I can't tell,
the broken freak of nature,
behind your mask,
standing here.
Fill up the hallow shell,
with what is left,
slowly hides inside.
Can't you believe,
this is me?
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"I could be a little monster..I'm a stone cold monster"
WTG & FA MA from 05 till 13.
Forever broken
R.I.P Tomahawk Lad
09/29/03 - 12/27/16
"I could be a little monster..I'm a stone cold monster"
WTG & FA MA from 05 till 13.
Forever broken
R.I.P Tomahawk Lad
09/29/03 - 12/27/16