Dear Journal,
I slept over my good friend Adam's house last night. He took me to Fridays. This morning they brought me to IHOP and then out to see Hanibal Rising. It was all good. I woke up fairly late. Around 10:00 A.M. I'd say. When I got home I went into my bedroom just to think. Clear my head y'know? I looked at the picture of a Raven that I drew about two or three days ago. It's a picture of a lone Raven perching itself on a small branch. In it's mouth is a black rose, and on one of the leaves holding this beautiful rose was a small dropplet of blood. I was trying to see if I could put a meaning into this picture I conjured up. I was brought to this. The lone Raven shows that when you are alone without someone to love and hold a great shadow overtakes you. The black rose represents that the shadow soon engulfs not only you but others around you. Thus turning a red rose to black. The droplette of blood it the rose itself bleeding. Once the shadow tooke control over the rose... it kills it and it's color and beauty dies and just drips away. I never relised how lonesome the Raven truly was until you look into it's eyes and see it's pain... the eyes of a scavenger... After I discovered a meaning behind the picture I layed down and just began thinking... thats all I ever do now. Just think and think. Valentines Day is nearing... I've never spent Valentines Day with someone. It's always been a day where I feel the loneliest of all. That is the day when it really hits me "I'm really ******** alone". Now this is to all of you people asking of "her". She is just a simple crush. Like every other ******** person I've liked. I won't get her so whats the point. She is just a crush nothing more. I don't know her... never spoken to her, don't know her name. I know NOTHING of her. I don't care if any of you people know her... or are friends. I'm not going to try and get her... I know what the outcome is so don't send me PMs about "I can hook you up with her" because I...DON'T...CARE.
 Notakashi · Sat Feb 10, 2007 @ 11:15pm · 1 Comments |
