I had this really twisted dream last night. It felt so real, that when I woke up, I was ready to cry.
I dreamed that Ray broke up with me. I was just walking back to my locker and he came up to me {this is after the break up}.
"Hey, you look alittle upset, what's wrong?" He asked in an unusually sympathetic way.
"Why do you care?" I asked coldly as I pulled my locker open.
"Oh come on, don't be like that." He said in a half pleading, insincere tone.
"Don't be like what? Don't be hurt? Well, [******** you too." I grabbed my coat out of my locker and slammed the door. As I got to my feet I glared at the floor and tried desperately to keep my cool. I began to walk out of the building when he grabbed my arm.
"I didn't mean to hurt you, I just..." He stopped and paused, but only for a minute before I cut in.
"You just what? You just thought this was for the best? You just figured that sinse I'm leaving this would make things easier. Well, did you bother to check the messages on your damn cell phone. I called last night. I was going to tell you that he didn't except the job. We are staying. Not that it matters now." My voice cracked with every word. I was on the brink of lossing my cool.
He pulled me close and hugged me, but I pushed him away as quick as I could manage.
"You know what, the only reason I wanted to stay in the first place was because I knew how bad it would hurt to leave you. But none of that matters now. Not a damn thing I did to try and stay, none of the plans I made, nothing matters any more. It's over. You've had your fun toying with my emotions, now leave me the hell alone." Despite how true they were to say, the words cut deep into my heart. I wrenched my arm our of his grip and started to walk away. The tears began to flood my eyes. I couldn't see anything aside from the blurred floor as itpassed beneath my feet. I could hear my own sobs, mixed with the clicking of my heels as the hit they pushed me foward.
"That isn't why I did it." He said as he hurried to catch up to me.
"Alright, then why?" I sighed as I stopped and looked away from him as best I could. I didn't want him to see how upset I was.
"She's coming back." He said in a low voice.
"Of coarse." I whispered as I wiped my eyes.
"I'm sorry." He murmered.
"Don't be. I guess I always knew this would happen." I walked away, out of the building and back to class.
That was It. I was devistated when I woke up.
I have had a bunch of dreams like this lately. I think it might mean something.
 [Aku~Soku~Zan] · Mon Jan 15, 2007 @ 03:46pm · 2 Comments |
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