Okay, Heres the scoup on what happend all this week and last week, for those of you who think my mom is a sweet angel who has done nothing wrong and dont understand why i do not wish to talkto her dispite what you have seen and heard about? listen up, because now, my brother even has practically disowned her...
OKAY, So, where to begin...
Ill start on the christmas eve story. The week before christmas, I was doing my christmas shopping, I origionally was not planning on buying anything for my mother, untill my aunt helen suggested that I get her something from spa sydell, because mom told her that she was stocked up on bath and body works stuff...-_-;;;; okay, so, now she's being picky about presents, which was the first thing that erked me. So, I have no idea where spa sydell is right? So I asked my aunt to buy it for me and I would pay the money back to her (which i did incase there arei ndividualswho would like to know that). Mom, apparently did not like that aunt helen helped me with my christmas shopping. However This will further be explained later. Christmas eve, now, I have several familys that want to see me over the holidays, Calebs, My dads side, and of course my moms side I ate dinner at my dads housebefore going over to moms house, because me and my brother (who ate at dads first too) both know that dinner with my moms side doesnt usually start untill 10:00pm....sometimes later sometimes earlier. We didnt end up eating dinner till 11:30 that night...its rediculous i know.... , The side of the family i dread seeing the most? moms, because there is always huge family fights over the christmas holidays, which is again what resulted this year as well.

Now, Mom was supposed to have told me about something or found some way to communicate this to me, either through email, or through leaving a message on my phone, or through my aunt or my brother, or even my grandparents, she's not tottally blocked off from me. What pisses me off more? She told my brother she had talked to me about it when she talked to him about it a month before hand. She had bought tickets for my grandparents to go see the aquarium on my yiayia's birthday which was the tuesday after christmas. She also, bought tickets for me and my brother which were NON refundable (this was a huge deal fyi that it was not refundable) so now, Mom decides to tell me, on christmas eve, two days before hand when i could have already had something else planned, that the day after christmas she wanted me to go with them to the aquarium and i have to go even if i have other planns because the tickets arent refundable.....Now, would you be ticked ? if you felt you were being forced to go somewhere with your family inwhich you know will be EXTREEMLY awkward? Yeah, I was pissed, I did not want to go, But i was going to go anyways because i did not want mom to have to waste her money....(dispite the fact that she does on everything else anyways) Well, the aquarium didnt happen...because my papou was in the hospital that day....all day long, due to vomiting and chest pains and acid reflex. That morning, My aunt helen calls me, and tells me my papou is in the hospital and that she's worried about him I tell michael when i hear him up an hour ish later....that he's in the hospital, Michael (my brother) assumes that we are not going, because thats the logical thing when it is something for the grandparents. But, this was not the case. Mom decided, that she was going to make me and my brother go WITHOUT my grandparents, and leave her own father who could be haveing a heart attack in the hospital....am I wrong? or has she really gone too far this time. Oh, and this isnt all...
My brother, gets a call from my mom, she's saying we should go anyways, my brother literally after her hanging up on him the first time, because he said i dont think its a good idea for us to go to the aquarium. she calls him back, and is crying and such and asks him why he doesnt want to go, my brother says this
"I THINK YOUR ******** INSANE, YOU WANT TO GO TO THE AQUARIUM WHIILE YOUR FATHER IS IN THE HOSPITAL! WHICH HOSPITAL ARE YOU IN?" she tells him where they are, he hangs up, and we get ready to go to the hospital, Now, on the way there my yiayia calls my brother on her cell...starts to tell him that he should go with mom without them, which is dumb and michael just says "where on our way down there now we'll be there in 20 minutes" We get there...my papou is on his way to the hospital bed. we make no akowledgement to mom for the first 10 minutes of us being there, and when we do? she starts talking crap about my aunt helen, and fusses at michael for being ugly to her when he had had enough of her s**t. Thats not all, we were at the hospital from 3:30 ish to 10:30 at night....during this time, they would not let more than two people be visiting in the room at a time, so we rotated, mom used this as an opprotuninty to discuss things that did not need to be discussed at the time in private. She started talking to me about her sister, after telling me that she thinks i shouldnt talk bad about her, when i dont, i just tell the truth. and then goes and bashes her sister like nobody's buisness to not only me, but to my brother too. She accused her of all sorts of things and went on about how she thinksmy aunt has no friends, communicated to me that i didnt spend enough on her forchristmas, starts fussing at me over stuff that she heard from one of her friends that carols friends knew....fussed at me about lots of stuff, There was more, but i cant remember the entirity of it now,i was so pised off about it. Well, later, my brother tells me she bashed aunt helen to him too, and says that she told him that shethinks that aunt helen stole a bottle wine from my yiayias house and sold it to me to give back to my grandparents. because i got them a bottle of wine for christmas and she didnt knowhow i could have got it...well my brothers 21, he helped me purchase it. Now that, is something that I cant evencome up with on my own...to be able to say something like that about your own sister...is just nuts! i cant see how she can bring herself to do that....but she does, and its bad. she calls me a liar behind my back as well ( i hear this from my aunt) also tells people im being brainwashed, tells people i was not much help when she had breast cancer, that i dont care about her which is not true, I do care, I just hate what she's doing. I do not, wish to speak to her because of how much she has destroyed the family because of her constant drama and emotional abuse.
This was not all that happend, Me and my brother talked to aunt helen about what happend in the hospital, and it really really upset her that my mom would talk about her own sister like that...so when mom brought the subject up at myyiayias house about how she was upset that me and my brother ate dinner at my dads house before going to her house on christmas eve and such, because she felt itm ade it less special...I HAVE OTHER PEOLPE TO SEEAND BE WITH! I WANTED TO SPEND TIME WITH THEM TOO ON CHRISTMAS IS THAT SO WRONG? &.& my aunt helen doesnt think so. caleb doesnt think so, everyone else ive discussed this withso far doesnt think so. I have ali fe....not only that, but my yiayia calls me up, later, the day after new years day, and fusses at me for 10 minutes about how terrible i was for not comeing over to my moms house on new years, when its always been at her house, and when i was spending the day with caleb, and the night before that i spent with my dad. -_-;;;;;; Theyare trying to controll me...i dont like it, mom wants me to bend to her everywill. Mom even tried to get my papou and yiayia to change the will, and almost succeeded in it too...she tried getting my aunt thrown out of it by getting them so pissed off at her they threatened to take my aunth elen outof the will, my papou is a weak man too.. he keeps saying oh "lets just smooth it over and forget about it" "....start fresh" im like "there is no ******** smothing this over" but he's done that all hisl ife, which is why he doesn ot have alot of money right now....its really sad...this hole situation is really sad, So, for those of you who are not convinced by my moms physical and emotional abuse while i was living in her house several years ago...mabye now, after hearing about all this crap going on, you will understand why im not speaking to her, why i dont want to speak to her, why i do not wish to even be around the woman....She's emotionally sick, goes through moodswings like mad...her thought patterns arent rational, She says one thing, then does soemthing totally different or vice verca, one minute she loves you the next she hates you...its so random, its like your walking on eggshells everytime your with her...


Edit: oh and get this, she told aunt helen she is going to return my present i got her, for something else...because she doesnt like it, even though its what she said she liked over the phone to her...WTF IS UP WITH THAT? She's lucky i even goth er a gift...not only that, but my yiayia called carol a whore, because she's living with my dad. Heres what i said "mom and dad lived together for 5 years before they were married, are you going to call mom a whore?" and she responded with "no..." and then I said "THEN DONT CALL CAROL A WHORE!" because she's not one, she's one of the sweetest ladies i know...and is dealing with alot of crap herself right now ata the moment. *shrug* Not only that, but my yiayia said she hopes she gets breast cancer and dies...thats horrible that she said that. But she did, She said that and then left her house the week i stayed over there to go see her sister....and didnt come back till 9 :00 at night...>.< Sometimes i want to hate my family, but then i realize theo ne i should be really mad at is my mother, and i am, Im mad at her for having an affair, forlieing about having an affair, for being willing to drag her kids and ex husband through the mud to be able to get an allomony of 9,000 dollars a MONTH TAX FREE not includeing her own job already, when she had an affair, and is even now after recieving 5,000 a month on house payments plus 3,000 for child support when her kids dont even live with her. Shethe only bills she has to pay? are for gas...and one otherthing, i cant remeber exactly what it was, but I mean COME ON thats rediculous! If she gets that, my dad will be paying her alomomy for hte rest of his life, and that is most of my dads salary....My dad? just wants a fair settlement, She takes half, he taks half, and she leaves him alone..thats all, That seems reasonable to me, thats what dad has offered all this time...and it sounds pretty reasonable to me....But mom wants more than that, He is not willing to pay for her lies..

also, for those of you who might not know, my family has been going through a divorce now for 3 years, and all sorts of drama has been caused because of it, even between my friends has it made issues....*shrug* My mom was the one who filed the papers to begin with, she was theo ne who asked for the divorce, she was the one who cheated on dad with another woman and is now lieing about it like she thinks she's done nothing wrong....yeah, its madness....and thats not all of it...theres still more to come, and more that I have not posted....like mom insulting my religion on my brothers birthday afterhaveing a fight with her as i was leaving...ect....'any church that upholds what your doing is no church" -_-' she doesnt know what she's talking about...im trying to respect and honer her as much as i can right now, but i cant evenbe around her without being pissed off, and thinking rude things about her. so my way of honering her right now? is no communication at all..because i dont want to be rude to her....

Mood:....frustraited
Music: Plumb-I cant do this