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I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO THINK ANYMORE!

Okay, I've got quite a few mixed messages going on right now, I am in general not good at keeping things to myself unless i'm told not to. (in which case i can keep secrets for a long time) So i'm just going to type out my feelings as they come to me as much as they may be completely incoherent.

Ok guys, now what the heck? Right now, there's Rach. She seems all sad and stuff and i want to do my best to help her. AJ went and told Student Services and now she's being forced to see a counsellor. Except then she wwent and got mad at everyone, AJ specifically and yet she's attacking Lindsey and Effi. We all just care about her. But then there's the opinion that maybe Rach, maybe you're just doing this for the ******** attention. Like before this all came up and happened you were always talking about how peple never invited you anywhere and how you were always left out. And then you went and told people you felt this way. Research has been done, and talk has gone on, not behind your back or anything. If you asked we would tell you that whats been happening basically behind closed doors (as in online and then over the phone and out in the open but only on New Year's) and the discussion. I'm incredibly worried but the councillor, you know the lady who made a career out of trying to figure out what's going on with people, thinks that you're doing it for attention. It makes sense in it's own way, I mean one second people aren't paying attention to you and then the next second people go out of their way to invite you to do things. All because you let it slip you are always sad and there isn't anything you can do about it. I'm of two minds on this theory. I don't want to believe you've been playing us all and yet if you aren't it means that there might be something clinically wrong with you and i don't want that to be right either. I'm just so damn confused. And now you're apparently all made at Effi because she never tried to help you with your problem. But last time I checked we were all giving you tons and tons of supprt and you were all telling us to stop because it was pointless and you would always be this way and there was nothing we could od about it. And then you turn around and accuse effi of not giving you enough support, that if she really cared she'd try harder to figure out what was wrong and go and talk to you in person or to call you on the phone, because you wouldn't be keeping a GJ anymore and wouldn't talk about this kind of stuff on the internet. ********. I don't need this kind of pain in my head right now, I'm worried and am having difficulty formulating an opinion because I don't know what story to believe. I don't understand what's going on anymore, I have even less of a handle on this since it's started. I want to help. I want to fix things, but i dn't know what's gong on...


...i'm so confused and I don't want to screw this up because the consequences could be horrible, it could cost people friendships or worse