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Were to start, I'm back home and not fealing very welcomed as usuall. I'm in my own little corner at the computer, I say nothing and stay to my self I'm left alone. If not, I have many fights and acts of hatred to look forward. My home really isen't as plesent as I wish it could be. I sometimes get jelous of other people and there family. I mean there so close, and share good and bad times together. All I mainly see here is the bad, perhaps it's my out look on life or home I have, needless to say, not the best things to picture. I feel so distant some times, I mean everyone always screams and yells at each other, no... I really to get jelous some times. But I suppose that's life, and again needless to say, I'll have to deal with it. It's just sometimes I don't want to, I don't want to listen to it, I don't want to deal with it, I ... just want out. I can't breath here, it's like I'm slowly detiriating. My family are very self implied people, I sometimes wounder if I am, though I always try not to so. I have one comfort with my bf but often have to defend myself to everyone. Cause we met on the internet everyones always ridding my a** about how dangerous that is, and how they think I'm being stupid and out to get myself banged. Why can't they just be nice about the fact JUST ONCE!!! meet JUST ONE PERSONE who won't critize what I do, who I see, how I act, and go about my own buisness. I just don't know anymore, I want to get over it, but it's like when ever I do, someone brings it up again. So we met on the internet SO WHAT!!!! ******** everyone and there closed minds, thinking the only types of people out there are the sick little *****. Why is the world so consintrated on the bad. Screw being optomistic if no ones interested in listening, just want to sit there and complain about how bad they got it .... like me right now. *sigh* I'm not saying I have the worst, just that a break would be nice, a recess of some kind. Just to forget all this, for just a while, to be free from all this fustration and hate. I have been blessed with a lover of my own, and though that's all that's going for me I hate the way people constitly try to take me down with it. So for all thoughs who try .... stare ******** you... I'm only whiling to listen to it so much, I will rebel if you keep ridding my a** like this. Just keep your little thoughts to your self, don't say them behind my back to other people, turning the way they see me to something bad.
Just keep your own s**t to your self, and leave mine alone
Kai_Chi · Sat Jul 29, 2006 @ 04:04am · 1 Comments |
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