Some Reflections on more music and its significance in mine and many other peoples lives.

The song I am sharing today. Is probably an all time favorite. If I had to select a theme song for my life. This is one of them. I have never seen an artist put so much emotion and authentic thought about their life as well as never seen one be so open and have such a beautiful heart for helping others as this one does. This artist. Has struggled through alcoholism. And a traumatizing divorce, custody battles and the like. And his music. Tells his life story. But in song. Its amazing. Some songs are dark. Other songs, are light and fun and happy. This song. Is an encouraging one. About letting go and finding peace again. It'
s about getting back up after being knocked back down. It's about believing in yourself. I used to not do these things well at all. Id hold people at arms length. Id get knocked down and stay down. I never gave up but I came close a few times. I did fight to get back up though eventually and I did. I'm doing well now and God always pulled me up if I let him in though. I had to let him in of course. And he showed up. Every time. This song I feel tells my story of learning to love myself. One of the most difficult things I had to do was to learn to love myself. And not in a selfish way. But in a just grateful for my own life kind of way. And in such a way. Where I can then give that to others. Because you see. If your own cup isn't filled and you have a whole in it. how then. How can you fill other people up with positive energy. You can't Because you're not allowing it. I found I am most often my own worst enemy. As I get older I learn this more. This song represents all of those things. It's my song I listen to almost every week. Because it's so empowering. It reminds me to keep going. Even if I loose it all to try and try and try again. Because I am worth it!!!!
God gave me this life. And no matter what I have. It's a gift. So I need to live and act like it is. And hopefully loving and helping others will then follow. So far that has worked for me. I hope and pray this is inspiring for you too.


Anyways. The song I am sharing today is my fav. It is called fear by Blue October. Check them out you guys. They are one of the most under rated bands I have ever followed. And deserve so much more credit than what they get. Enjoy. I am linking you to the youtube music video too.


All my life
Been running from a pain in me
A feeling I don't understand
Holding me down
So rain on me
Underwater
All I am, getting harder
A heavy weight
I carry around
Today
I don't have to fall apart
I don't have to be afraid
I don't have to let the damage
Consume me,
My shadow see through me
'Cause fear in itself
Will reel you in and spit you out
Over and over again
Believe in yourself
And you will walk
Now, fear in itself
Will use you up and break you down
Like you were never enough
Yeah, I used to fall, now I get back up
I'm up here
I'm looking at the way down there
I'm staring through the I don't care
It's staring back at me
The beauty is
I'm learning how to face my beast
Starting now to find some peace
Set myself free, yeah
Today
I don't have to fall apart
I don't have to be afraid
I don't have to let the damage consume me
My shadow see through me
'Cause fear in itself
Will reel you in and spit you out
Over and over again
Believe in yourself
And you will walk
And now, fear in itself
Will use you up and break you down
Like you were never enough
I used to fall but now I get back up
I'm moving on
Oh God just move on
Today
I don't have to fall apart
I don't have to be afraid
Get back up
Get up
Feel it, fear, wow
And now fear, fear in itself can use you up
And then breaks you down
You're never enough
And I used to fall
Breathe
Ask for more
If you're bitter still
Ask him to help you carry on

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Q3b0-i1T8Hk