Jun 29, 2020
I've been having really odd dreams, I hesitate to even call them dreams because I don't feel asleep when I'm in them. That is to say I know I'm in bed, I know it's not real, I can often even hear my AC unit, but I feel like I'm awake or at least aware. Like at any time of my choosing I could open my eyes and be out. Weirdly despite this heightened "lucidity" I can't control the dreams. I can influence them a bit but not anywhere near the degree I would expect. There where two of note.
The first I won't detail but the lesson learned is sometimes the right choice isn't to find the best solution but rather to fight for what you exclusively want, win vs win-win.
The second had a theme of "what is reality?" Every time I pushed toward truth I got imagery of a pin dropping onto glass slowly chipping it away, trying to break the glass and discover the secret's beyond. I fought hard but there was so much fear, after all what really happens when reality unravels? Just as enlightenment may be beyond there may also be only madness. I'm actually rather proud of my effort to smash through the barrier to the unknown but I still couldn't fully commit. I wonder how much that says about me.
all_winters_eve · Tue Jun 30, 2020 @ 04:25am · 0 Comments |