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------I had the most heart breaking nightmare. I just woke up from sleep right now so its kinda still fresh in my head. I woke up with my chest hurting and tears crawling down my eye bags. Waking myself up via crying, thats new. Normally I'd tell you about this dream in person. However, I find myself hesitating because its kinda embarrassing. Embarrassing in a way that I'd have to finally admit that I've grown fond of you and I've developed these dumb feelings that, I'm too scared to pursue. A reason being is because theres almost about three thousand miles between us, amongst other things. I guess here it is! A confession, that you probably weren't expecting to find here of all places.

------I've been having a common occurrences in my dreams lately of being chased. I've had dreams where I was being hunted by a secret police agency, because I stole rings from them. Or that dream I told you about with the necromancer that hexed me with a curse. This time it was a mafia who apparently I owed them money. I was in debt and they told me that if I don't pay up they're gonna hurt me. Me, having no regrets in my life right now took up their bluff. There was no way they could hurt me or so I thought. After all, If I died right now I'd be perfectly content because I'm happy of the way I am right now. Its really hard to threaten someone's life if they really don't value it in the first place. They had something more devious planned though.

------We were in Barcelona on vacation. I guess in this dream I somehow was brave enough to pursue my feelings unlike reality. But, Its most likely my subconsciousness dreaming of what could be though. Here we were in Spain and I don't speak a lick of Spanish, even though you thought I was hispanic. I was walking back to the hotel when someone placed a bag over my head and tossed me into the back of their car. They told me my time has come and that I've failed to pay back. When they took off the bag. I found myself handcuffed, ankles and wrists to a chair. A man with a with a rusty steel rebar bludgeons me till I'm bloodied and bruised with broken ribs. My head is ringing and I cough up blood only to find I've coughed out teeth as well. My whole body was numb.

------After that roughing session they sent me to the hospital. I don't know why but they could have killed me on the spot. As I laid there recovering, I couldn't help but to not think about you. They left me a note containing an address. When they discharged me. I immediately went back to the hotel, but you weren't there. So I hailed a cab to go to the address on the note. It took me to the olympic stadium. The sun was setting at this point. I found you in front of the entrance, staring at the equestrian statues. I walked beside you and stared at them too, for a while I was at ease. But the words were too fast and I found myself mute.

------"Do I know you?" you say.

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------"I'm sorry but I think you got the wrong person."

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------"I'm sorry but I really don't know you."

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------"I gotta go."

------You walk away, and I realize that they probably made you forget me. Or that they've disfigured me to the point that I'm unrecognizable and forgettable. Either way It was too emotionally painful that I forgot to breathe, ejecting me out of the dream as I wake up finding myself gasping for air with pockets of water forming underneath my eyes.

------Thanks for reading, this is Anikacy, signing out.