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A big fat fork in my road, which way to go? [Part I] |
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Well, i'm having a problem, y'see! I'll keep this as short, and angsty-emo-whiney free as possible. So, bear with me here!
Alright, in short, my house sucks. My family (only mom and sister) make my life vertually hell. I can't learn anything, I can't -do- anything without being yelled at and feeling like i'm being smothered. Like i'm drowning. I can't stand it. I'm not healthy phisically, or mentally now. It doesn't look too bright for my future if I keep winding down like this.
But! I have a choice... I could move away. To a friend's house. A friend a few states away. Sure, it doesn't seem believable to someone unless they know exactly the relationship between me and this person. But it is -definately- a strong window for me. They want me to move out there, and i'd sure as hell be anywhere but here.
The difference in the two places? Well, at this friend's house, it will be empty except for us. That means, no arguments! *weeps a bit at the thought* We'd not have to work, aside from cleaning the house. We could play games, watch TV/movies, drive around and shop all day, and sleep neggid on the floor if we wanted! surprised I could get my education back on track (since it's at a stand-still in my house right now, i'm deathly afraid I won't be able to get my diploma) easily, even. My friend loves to cook, and they cook healthy things. And, what with the free time, I could also work-out! So, my phisical health would pick up along with my mental health. =D
Sounds good, don't it? Now, why -not- move up there? A few reasons... One, my family would raise all kinds of hell about me leaving. I'm 19, I can leave if I want to, but I just know they'd try and call the cops. Two, I've never travelled even -that- far before. It would be such a change, and to go live with someone i've never met in person with? I've only talked on the phone/computer with them for a good year, no phisical contact as of yet. Three, what if things don't work out as nicely as we're hoping? You never know how life twists! Will it be worth it?
I'm so confused, I don't know what to do! I'd like some help, but i'll continue to chew on this on my own. 3nodding
 edaaz · Tue May 09, 2006 @ 10:30am · 0 Comments |
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